headspace map post!

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All right, it's almost 10PM but let's try to get at least half our update together before tomorrow.
Today's therapy session was rather difficult, and our 'homework' is to print out all of the trauma memories and/or topics we can find, as self-doubt, fear, memory blocks, and angry fronter buffers are preventing anyone from offering the info in session. I know of a few entries already that we can print but the tough part is going to be figuring out who is going to discuss them? Julie definitely could, but she really hates looking back on what she was, and usually ends up in tears as a result. Laurie, Sherlock, and Isadora can offer varying secondhand data but no experience obviously. Every trauma voice can talk about triggers and related 'vague' memories but they absolutely despise doing so. And then of course, I have my own personal traumatic memories to discuss, post-Julie, except that like her, looking back on those sabotaging decisions is horrifically difficult in every sense.
Tomorrow I think we're going to practice fronting, with those of us who often don't, or who don't have enough experience or 'force' to get through quickly (Wreckage is 'new' but she's already come through strongly several times, although that's typical for Retributors). The 'Victorian Pink' girl is our main focus-- she needs a name, but she is so angry and depressed and existentially distraught that she is almost impossible to talk to or work with yet. And like most of the traumatized voices she is terrified of women, so she won't talk to many of our members. However, Knife is our new healer, and he's the only male Retributor, which basically makes him ideal for the job of directly helping these profoundly damaged children. We asked him if he'd be up for the job after our session, and I swear the man's heart melted on the spot; he sincerely replied that he'd be honored, and he'd absolutely love to do so. So that will hopefully start tomorrow. It's going to be interesting.
In the meantime I have... a lot of tabs open. Thank heavens for this archive though, really.

However let's catch up on last time first!
Here's the makeshift 'headspace chart' I mentioned in our previous entry (open in new tab for full size).



Let's talk about that vertical map first because that is literally what headspace feels like in terms of layering, at least roughly so.
A lot of things have changed post-massacre so I'm going to describe things based on old data; we're still rebuilding and the new locations aren't quite anchored-in yet. So the descriptions here will be based on what headspace was like from approx. 2008 through 2013.

I admittedly had no idea how to map Central (everything above the ground floor in that building) because, with all our additions and modifications, and the fact that it can and does shift freely, it doesn't always adhere to physical space constraints!

At the very top, there's our famous roof. It's actually not quite flat; there are at least two 'tiers' to it, and small steps leading about. The main area (first tier) is where Jeremiah's original "bubble room" was, and where this awesome setup is. The second tier leads to the edge of the roof with an awesome view of the city, and there we have this massive canopy bed that people just chill out on to enjoy the view.
Speaking of views, the sky is awesome. We've got planets and stars and nebulae and auroras and everything. Sometimes there are even planetary rings visible because why not. Surrounding the Central building is the rest of Central City, which is basically the main area of Midspace. Again, the city consists of both buildings and giant crystal towers, and both are of varying heights, with trees and road-like passageways looping and curving between all of it. It feels like a forest to me, although it's not so organic.
Midspace also consists of the areas outside of Central City, which is mostly deciduous forest (to the left), and of course the Rio de Janiero-like beach that opens up to a rather large body of water (to the right), across which is rather tropical land (the forests upstairs are both deciduous and tropical, depending on where you go-- incidentally, Sergei and Hyakin hang out in the former, while Aimee and Emmett prefer the latter).

Going back to the main skyscraper-- the floor marked as "Central" is our main floor, i.e. where we have Xanga sessions. It looks a lot like this. 'Central' arguably spans at least two floors though, as there is this glassy spiral staircase in the far right corner that opens up into a closed stairwell and an open-square landing, with a large window looking outside to your right, and a very pretty crystal chandelier hanging in the middle. Straight ahead is Xenophon's original room, and to the left is the door to my room, which I share with the Outspacers. My room also does not have a "fourth wall"-- to your right when you walk in, there was a little wall with a door to Xennie's room, and then there was just this balcony along the remaining edge, which overlooked the ground floor of Central. We'll get to that in a minute!
Back into Central itself,
(balconies (smaller, with CZ), few small rooms off to the right (ORIGINAL rooms???), stairs down to 'bedrooms')

If you go down the glass stairwell in the corner (not the closed one), it opens up into another floor that we all use as more of a lounge room, or general community room. Both walls cornering the stairwell are glass, and I've only gotten the view from them once-- it was sunset, and was looking out over the edge of the city (there are virtually no buildings behind Central) and the first rolling hills of the Midspace forests. The other large wall facing the city is also mostly glass, with a row of floor-to-ceiling windows. I think some of these swing out like doors? There's a large 'balcony' on that side, which again looks like the Faena House, and it's notable for being the place where we met Kyanos again, the day the Undergrounders first visited Central.

Going down a bit in the map, the little hallway up top (row of doors) represents our personal rooms in Central, although they also feel strongly vertical in terms of placement to each other so again, not sure how to draw it. Only Infi and I don't have rooms there (he has bubblespace and I'm on the top floor). I've also never seen inside Laurie's room and I don't know if she even uses it; she spends most of her time chilling out in mine.
Beneath that, is the ground floor! It's where the closed staircase goes down to (it opens up into this room though), and where my room looks out over (to the left of the stairs, if you're on them). It has a very high ceiling, and at least one of the walls is almost entirely glass (the other walls are painted glossy white). The room is also full of plants! It's really lovely. The first time I ever saw this room, Emmett was playing in it with the Lowspace kids, and the second time I ever saw it was when Waldorf left for a while. (http://lightraye.livejournal.com/449088.html)

Now let's go outside for a bit.


The old Archives were "three floors down" from Central and also included the "simulation room" as data was 'digital' back then?


As for bubblespace, it doesn't have a physical location, as it "floats" in the void.





On the right is a color chart of sorts-- I was trying to figure out how colors lined up from light to dark hues, and was listing the holders in that order. The checkmarks indicate that those colors are held but I'm not 100% sure if that's the correct hue order-- for example, in Violet, Xenophon, Christina, and Isadora all hold lighter hues and I can't quite verify what order they are in in that respect. By the way the order of colors is mostly a visual thing, with the exception of the darkest and lightest slots I think? And those would only seem to indicate personality traits, with the obvious exception of the Pink slots (Knife has always been sweeter than Sugar, ironically).

For the sake of filling you guys in, as I haven't done this in a long time... let me just copy/paste our personal word document concerning color slots and levels here. (♀♂ also added for the sake of simple pronouns.)
♥=Central // ♦=Midspacers, Archivists // ♣=Lowers // ♠=Downstairs // ★=Underground // ✜=Chthonic // ✽=Outspacers
(two symbols means: first, current level-- second, previous or co-held level) (no symbols means unsure, or unknown)


♥BROWN: SPINE HYPOMONE♀
♠BEIGE: AIMEE♀
♠TAN: THE DESTROYER?♀ (faceless?)
RUSSET: JAYCE??♂ (very blurry. may have shifted)
♣SPICE: SPICE♀
♣CHOCOLATE: "OVERLOAD"♀
★BISTRE: "THE BEAR"♂
♥RED: JAVIER ANASTASI♂
♠CHERRY: ZWEI♀
✽RUBY: JEWEL LIGHTRAYE♀
CRIMSON: EROS♂ (seems to have dissolved)
★BLOOD: RAZOR♀
CADMIUM: CANNON♀
✜MAROON: "DEAD RED"♂
♥ORANGE: LYNNE STABELLE♀
♦PEACH: KALISHA♀
♦CORAL: AMARA♀
♦TANGERINE: HYAKINTH♂
♠HONEY: "THE HONEYBEE"♀ (very blurry; may have dissolved)
BRONZE:
★VERMILION: ALGORITH♀
♥YELLOW: JOSEPHINA BELLAMEIRE♂
♣CREAM: SIMEON♂ (blurry)
♠SAND: SYLVAIN??♂ (if not fused with simeon. very blurry)
✽AMBER: GENESIS APOLYMIS♂ (said he might actually be orange?)
♣MUSTARD: MARIGOLD♀
✜GOLD: WRECKAGE♀
♠BURNISH: MAVERICK?♂ (suspected)
♥GREEN: NATHANIEL VICTOIRE♂
♦SAGE: SERGEI♂
✽LIME: CELEBREON♀
CHARTREUSE: "ONI GIRL?"♀ (hard to find)
SHAMROCK: QUEEN?♂ (suspected)
OLIVE: BRIDGET♀ (dissolved)
JADE:
♥✽AQUA: CZ??♂ (not anchored into this slot yet)
★MINT: MINTY♀
CYAN: PINSTRIPE?♂ (status unknown; may have dissolved)
♠AZURE: EINSATZ♂
♣TEAL: EMMETT♂
✜VIRIDIAN: "MERMAID"♀
♦SKOBELOFF: GARRISON♂
♥BLUE: WALDORF KALLIOPE♀
CRYSTAL:
POWDER: MISSY♀ (dissolved)
♦SKY: KYANOS♂ (blurry)
♠SLATE: GENT?♂ (suspected)
✽SAPPHIRE: RIO SAIKARAS♂
♠NAVY: "SINGER"♀ (blurry)
♥INDIGO: LEON KIASI♂
♣ICE: DAVID♂
♠SMOKE: "AIRPORT"♂ (faceless)
IOLITE:
✽DUSK: MARKUS BARASHIR♂
MIDNIGHT:
???:
♥VIOLET: LAURIE UBERICH♀
★LILAC: CHRISTINA MARIE♀
♦MAUVE: ISADORA♀
✽LAVENDER: XENOPHON LEPHISE♀
FUCHSIA?
PLUM:
PURPLE:
♥PINK: JULIE ENANTIOS♀
★SUGAR: SUGAR♀
♣ROSE: JEREMIAH♂
✜VICTORIAN: "VICTORIAN PINK"♀ (blurry)
NEON:
★CERISE: MULBERRY DELTA BRANDY♀
★CLARET: KNIFE♂
♥✜BLACK: INFINITII ETERNOS♂♀ + THE TAR
STORM:
♦GRAY: SHERLOCK♂
✽SILVER: MISTER SANDMAN♂
♥WHITE: JAY IRIDOS♂ + THE PLAGUE
♣CLEAR: AUTOPILOT (faceless)

Sharona dissolved (thankfully), Jezebel counts as the Tar, Spinny is faceless and hopefully dissolving. Jessica may or may not have fused with Cannon; those two have been blessedly absent for a while.
And to top it all off, there are at least three suspected people (one obviously yellow) that no one's been able to clearly pin down yet.
But yes, that's everyone that we clearly know of right now.

Every Central color has six surrounding slots, making a seven-color "cell" as far as flowchart visuals would go (I'm sure you remember those). I was getting a "hexagon" feel from the actual slots for a while now, so I was quite surprised to see that the shape actually matched current color counts.




(left unfinished as there was a major innerspace shift shortly afterwards)