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hungryghosts(Another Reddit post that got too long and might be refined into an essay at some point: this one gives Phosphor's perspective on the circumstances behind Lark taking primary front.)
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I made two posts that I would like to flesh out into essays, in the future. For now, I'm going to store the first drafts here, in a place less impermanent than our Reddit comment history.
The first concerns the experience of taking over as primary fronter in a time of crisis; the second concerns a peculiar relationship I have with a specific fictional character.
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What writing gets posted this month?
Infinity Smashed: Born Lucky
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Reverend Alpert: the Traveling Exorcist
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Henchwench for Hire (F/F supervillainy)
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Rutless (trans omegaverse porno)
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Anatomy of a Dance
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The Boy Whose Heart Is Home
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The Battleaxe and the Blood-Eater
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The Hands of a Dozen Strangers (touch essay)
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What art/comic/zine gets posted this month?
Cult Comix
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Death Watch
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How it Was, How It Is
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2012 hospital sketchbook
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2013 Homeless Year sketchbook
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2014 AllFam sketchbook
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Blushing and Scent (Mori/Rawlin fluff)
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pluralstories"But doux-doux," Prince of Cemetery said, "your grandaughter head full of spirits already; she ain't tell you? All kind of duppy and thing. When she close she eyes, she does see death. She belong to me. She is my daughter. You should 'fraid of she."
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lb_lee posting in pluralstorieslb_lee posting in pluralstoriesmatshushima! Thank you, matsushima!synecdochesA couple of weeks ago, I got very high and had a potentially important series of thoughts. I was considering water tension, gravity, and the gas-liquid state conversion, and realized it was all governed by the same laws of particle physics on the molecular level. Then I made connections that all Newtonian motion are governed by these same rules, and that very likely, Newtonian motion can be broken down into the movement of electrons. Every time you zoom in, you find a level of detail at which everything fits into the same category: everything is made of molecules, all molecules are made of atoms... These levels of detail and abstraction are an invention of consciousness and the limitations of our biological sensors, because we don't have the bandwidth to process reality in constant infinite detail.
And then, what happens if you keep zooming out? You lose that detail. The smaller parts stop looking unique and individual, and instead their manifestations are only seen as part of a broader pattern. Everything is patterns, all the way up.
The specifics of the science aren't important for this post, and I probably was wrong about some of them.
The most important realizations were:
I am now trying to investigate these concepts. There is pushback internally to the idea that Bash and Wizard may be the same, but there was also pushback internally to the idea that we were plural at all. We have previously differentiated Wizard on the basis that it has conflicting ideas with other members of the system, as well as elements in common with both Bash and Paul.
If Wizard is the same entity as both Bash and Paul...? That seems drastic, but it might be possible. It would mean that conglomerate spends about the same amount of time at/near front as Fox and Merlin each do.
At what point have we zoomed out too far and lost the useful distinctions in search of a broader pattern? What parts of this are actionable, and what parts are useful to act on?
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lb_lee posting in pluralstoriesmatsushima! Thank you, matsushima!lb_lee posting in pluralstorieshungryghosts[by Lark]
As a disclaimer, we aren't sure how to make someone fully detach from front. However, we do believe that fixating upon that to the exclusion of all else is counterproductive, at best. To consider it pointless to switch without full detachment is much like thinking it's pointless to draw unless you can produce a da Vinci masterpiece. There is, of course, the fact that you will never become capable of producing the metaphorical masterpiece without a tremendous amount of practice with the fundamentals; but more importantly, just as historical masterpieces should not be considered the only worthwhile art, fully detached switching should not be considered the only worthwhile switch. Our system, instead, defines success by the ability to take and keep control, for gradually longer periods and with increasing clarity of mind. It is a skill to continually develop rather than a goal to reach, and we have not needed full detachment in order to do so. (Much of switching, as it turns out, is about tempering your expectations.)
Likewise, we will caution against relying upon switching as your sole method of surviving an abusive living situation. There is no shame in doing what you must to survive - we have switched to survive before - but no one can survive those situations forever. Not even you. As Phosphor likes to say so colorfully, changing who's in the furnace means someone is still burning to death. And you deserve to switch in for reasons other than to burn in another's stead. It is always easier said than done, but try to find external support; try to have an exit plan that is not death.
In any case, here are my personal observations, in no particular order.
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