all coregroup snips from 2004

october 7th 2004

ME AND MY ARMY OF WHISTLING BONELESS CHICKENS SHALL RULE THE WORLD!!! MUAHahAhAaa!!

<Marik> Um... what army?
<Me> The army right in front of you!! *waves arms* See?! They're so evil, and... boneless... o.o
<Marik> Jewel, you don't even have 20 of them.
<Me> So it's a small army!!!!
<Marik> ...Sure. And once your mutated produce has demolished all who oppose, I shall rule the world. As pharaoh. 
<Me> *puts on pharaoh headdress thing* 'N I can be the next Hatshepsut! Huzzah! And then me and you can destroy Yami Yugi! 
<Marik> *rubs hands together* Indeed we shall. But why wait?
<Me> Ingenious idea, my friend! Now let us CONQUER!
<Marik> This is because her hyperactivity rating is at 100% today, right? …Still funny, though.
*shiny transformation scene*
<Me> Mew Blackberry!! Hu hu hu hu huuu!!!!!... *bolts off with chickens following*
<Marik> >>; ...This is because her hyperactivity rating is at 100%, right? ...Funny, though.
<Me> *still running* Ho ho ho... yes, I do believe the rest of this entry will be in semi-chatroom form because it's more fin that way. RIGHT, MINIONS??!!
<E.W.B.C.A.> *evil whistle clucking*
<Me> Hu hu huu... yes, that's right. An' ze letters stand for-- EVIL WHISTLING BONELESS CHICKEN ARMY!!!!!!! --or rather, small army. Like my Mariku-kun said. Indeed. *stops running* Aha! Here we are. At the castle. Yes. Now COME, my minions!! Let us fulfill our mission! Huzzah. *waltzes in*


 
july 30th 2004

Speaking of links and couples, if any links of mine are sky high its the ones I have with Bakura, Marik and Chaos. I've been talking to the three of them a lot lately, as I had to minimize communications with them for a bit. I've especially been spending time with Bakura, as I have the strongest links with him and we're the closest. Something happened yesterday-- I daydreamed something that had to do with someone forcing me to choose one of the lives of the three people I loved the most (three guesses who, lol)-- the other two would die. Naturally, I couldn't stand losing any one of them. So I offered my life in exchange for theirs. Thankfully, I got Bakura and the others to get me out of there at the last minute. I can always count on them. And they can always count on me. I love all of them so much... and you know, it's funny- Chaos fell in love with me first. ^^; I mean, sure, we were friends for a while, but it turns out he had serious feelings for me for a while. Marik almost ran me over on his bike when I first met him, lmao. That was pretty funny. We like each other a heck of a lot, but most of the time we just act like nutso casual friends. lol. But that's because we're both crazy. lmao... Bakura, however, I kinda knew the second I met him that we would be inseparable. And it's been like that. 
 


july 4th 2004

I decided to meet up with Bakura and Marik again on Friday, as I haven't been seeing them for a while. They were really happy to see me, too. <3 We flew around Japan for a while before I had to leave, but it was worth it. See, I had to minimize my links with them temporarily to "fix" my link with the J-Monsters. I'm not exactly sure, but I think my long period of involvement with Bakura and Marik had somehow overpowered my J-Monster link so I couldn't connect with them as well as usual. But a short break, a lot of action and a few apologies got me back on top. Also, I got a connection with NiGHTS and the Nightmaren and such…



 
april 4th 2004

I finally found someone who understands who I really am
Someone who can see past my appearance
I'll admit, I really like you. I'm sure it's no surprise.
But how can you see into my heart
When you look deep into my eyes?
What can you see?
I finally found someone who understands who I really am
Someone who can see past my appearance
I'll admit, I think I love you. I'll never tell you any lies.
But how can you see into my heart
When you look deep into my eyes?
What can you see?

But no one ever cares about a monster
And no one ever looks inside
No one ever falls in love with darkness
And turns them towards the light
But I didn’t know you then.
All this chaos and destruction
I know it was all caused by me
You still looked in my eyes
And you said I was beautiful
How could that be
The only thing you could see?
Maybe I’ll understand someday
They all kept telling me to break away
To turn away from the darkness that was me
They all kept telling me to open my heart
I couldn’t hear them
Why can I hear you?
Why did I listen then?
They all kept telling me to open my heart
You’re the only one who broke through
Your words were the only ones that reached me.
Some sort of emotion
I couldn’t comprehend
Maybe one day you’ll show me how it feels
Maybe one day you’ll help me to understand
They all kept telling me to break away
To turn away from the darkness that was me
They all kept telling me to open my heart
I couldn’t hear them
Why can I hear you?
Why did I listen then?
They all kept telling me to open my heart
You’re the only one who broke through
Your words were the only ones that reached me.
Some sort of emotion
I couldn’t comprehend
Now I know how it feels
Because I finally understand
Now I know why I only heard you
Now I know why you were always there
Now that I’m with you
I finally understand
What it means to be in love.
 
 


march 29th 2004

You were the loner with the painful past
I was the girl no one knew much about
And I guess something must have clicked between us
Because we're much more than best friends now, no doubt.
I saw that look in your eyes
You said that you were waiting for something.
But what were you waiting for?
What were you really waiting for?
Now you don't have to wait anymore
Because I'll always be here for you.
And I don't care what they say
We'll stick together and we'll both see it through.
And I love you... have I ever told you before?
Because I love you so much more
Than you'll ever know.
So don't be waiting anymore
You had the bike and I guess everything they wanted
Because you always had those girls chasing after you
But lucky me, your heart was set on only one girl
The one who's love would always be true.
And I saw that look in your eyes
You said that you were waiting for someone.
But who were you waiting for?
Who were you really waiting for?
Back on that one painful day I can't believe I almost lost you
And you know I'd never let that happen or I would die.
I didn't care what happened to me, I just went right after you
But the pain just wouldn't leave me and I couldn't help but cry.
Until I saw that look in your eyes
You said you were waiting for me.
Is my love what you were waiting for?
Is that what you were really waiting for?
Now you don't have to wait anymore
Because I'll always be here for you.
And I don't care what they say
We'll stick together and we'll both see it through.
And I love you... have I ever told you before?
Because I love you so much more
Than you'll ever know.
So don't be waiting anymore
I love you, so you don't have to wait anymore.
You don't have to wait anymore...
 
 


march 22nd 2004

I remember the day I met you
It was truly a surprise
Love was all that I felt for you
From the first time I looked into your eyes
Was it a coincidence?
Or was it destiny?
Whatever it was I know you
Were truly meant for me
They might say that I'm crazy
They may call me insane
But whenever I see you
I forget all the pain
No matter how many lies
What I say here is true
Throughout my entire life
I will always love you
 



march 20th 2004

Yep, a lot has changed in a year. For example, Vez has fallen in love with Preludove, and me with Marik. But I still love Bakura…
I'm listening to "To Know The Unknown" from my PKMN3 soundtrack right now. You know, the lyrics really apply to me and Bakura. Seriously. You should listen to it... ♥ … they say, "You don't have to tell me just why you went away- Now that you've come back, there's nothing more to say. All I really need to know is that you're here to stay." That fits perfectly with how I left Domino to return to my hometown (I DIDN'T WANT TO!!!! >>;) and had to leave Bakura and Marik behind. :***( So sorry!!!!!!!! I didn't want to... but then, fitting to the lyrics, I did return (yay!!♥) and I did stay (and still am lol). Also, they say "I don't need all the answers, 'cause one thing is true: as long as my heart beats, I'll always love you." That fits, too. For many people. Ever hear of an *incident*? Probably not. Last entry was even before me & Bakura's first one!! We're almost on our third, and I got into one with Chaos just recently!!!
Oh: new thing that I will talk about. Chaos Zero. ♥ He's fun. And fuzzy. ♥ Very fuzzy for a liquid guardian. But he's awesome!! We're best buds, too. ♥ And if you're wondering about the *incident* either read my new manga (Love Hurts) or my write-out of it. I love write-outs. You can shove so much emotion into them and they're uber-fun!! :)
Oh, and I got a Cherubell morph. It's fun. ♥ Also, Bakura got a Cherublack one and Marik a Visogem. Fun, eh? Very!!!
 
 


march 12th 2004

Billy called me up the other day and claimed he was going to Italy so he wanted me to kiss him as a goodbye.
Well, what so you think I said?
NO.
Well, not exactly. That would have been rude.
I said it would feel like betrayal.
He asked why.
Well, what would you say?? “Because I don’t love you, I love Bakura and Marik and that’s why it feels like betrayal”??
I sure wouldn’t!!
He has a huge mouth. :P
So I said nothing. But now he won’t stop bothering me. One day he’ll probably find out, and then he’ll know.
Marik wonders why in the world he asked me that.
YamiBakura is wondering whether or not he should tell Billy the answer.
Marik then asks Odion for his opinion on what to tell Billy.
Odion is dumbfounded.
Lol! Oh well. Maybe Bakura and Marik will decide on something.
 
 


march 2 2004
Wow. My dream last night was... *drifts off* ...phenomenal. All three of my guys were in it... with me, and it was awesome. Oh wow. *faints* ♥
 


 
february 20th 2004

…You know, I’ve been to a bunch of Bakura fan sites, but one of them started this question…
They call it the “Bakura Shrine,” but I could say less of it.
Of course, I looked through the whole thing, and it was OK, but then came the fan art.
Tell me, what sort of Bakura fans draw pics of him getting eaten, stabbed or killed?
Very strange ones, I tell you.
So, here is the question I came upon.

If Bakura’s fans…
…Draw pictures of death,
…Write stories of lies,
…And spread painful rumors…
…Then who am I?
The only one who truly loves and respects Bakura…
…Who am I?...
 
 
 

february 18 2004

At the one part where I think of Marik and Bakura at Battle City, I said this—
I love you
I gave you my heart
I’ve always loved you
Right from the start
I love you
And if you ever left me
I wouldn’t be able to go
On with my life
So don’t ever leave me
Because I love you
And I know you love me
I know.
It…it just came into my mind as the music went on. It’s funny though…the words go right with my dream with me and Bakura, when I almost lost him… (journal entry #4)

~THOUGHTS~ FILE 2004

~Thoughts~

This is what I call a thought page. A thought page is a simple piece of paper, or in this case, a computer file, where I can always go when I need to express my innermost thoughts and feelings. I started writing thought pages back in the seventh grade, when I was about 12. I am now 16 and have saved every page since then.
As a result, through these pages, I have the opportunity to look back on the past four years of my life, and all their troubles, joys, wonderings…and just plain old, random thoughts.
It’s an odd feeling. I’ve changed so much since then, and yet, I’ve stayed the same. The same dreams, the same loves, the same…well, thoughts.
I want to give you the opportunity to feel that, too.
So, here in this document, are the current- and not so current- thoughts of my life now... for both you and I to read—and for me to constantly update—whenever we wish.
So please, think about what I have said here…
…And enjoy the thoughts of my life.
~Jewel Lightraye~

~My thoughts started here on Saturday, July 10, 2004 10:58:04 AM~


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I’m beginning to scare myself. Every time that I really look at myself, I realize things that I never did before. I’m telling you, it’s scary. I’m becoming sort of like a stranger to myself.
I hope I don’t forget me altogether.
Also, I feel…insignificant. The world ignores me.
Sometimes I even talk to my stuffed animals. At least they care about me.
So does Bakura.
I talk to him too.
But…
I want to be known. To be remembered. So when I finally have to leave this world people will know and appreciate who I was.
Like Elvis Presley, Marilyn Monroe, George Washington…everyone knows their names.
I want to be like them. Not necessarily famous worldwide, but known.
I want people to remember me.


That’s me, looking out at the big, wide world. :)
Wonder if someone sees me…


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Konnichiwa, y’all. It’s August 21, 2004, and I’ve been thinking a lot lately… about the J-Monsters. It’s weird…looking at life here in this world and then at them…not much of a difference, eh? But what’s really getting me thinking is this Justice legendary. You know, the über-kawaii one with the long ears and the sad eyes? Well. Besides the insanely powerful attacks he has and his ability to access his own pure heart energy, he’s got this new thing where he can actually manipulate the emotions of someone through their heartstrings. It’s scary, in a way. But don’t worry. Being a monster of justice and all, he doesn’t use it often. He’ll only do it if he absolutely has to or if someone desperately asks him. It’s like an emergency thing. But what’s frightening is what XX could do with that power… but I won’t worry about that. I don’t think XX can even touch him. …Another thing about the J-Monsters. Recently I’ve been realizing how incredibly close D and Jenny are. Really. And I think that’s one of the reasons XX wants to destroy them as soon as possible. There’s something about J-Monster relationships…the people (or monsters, for that matter) somehow get more powerful than they could normally, and all sorts of stuff… it’s weird. I’ll see if I can figure anything out about that. One more thing. My Chaos links are going up. That’s real good, since it’s hard for me to remember things with him and everything. I don’t know why, maybe I’m being blocked somehow… anyway, they’re really up there. My links with him, I mean. And I also realized how shockingly powerful his Angel form is. Perfect Chaos vs. Angel Chaos…the battle of the century, eh? Then again, against Chaos’ Angel form, the match would probably take…mm, two, three minutes, tops? Not even. Hold on, how’d I get into this rambling? Never mind. I really like Chaos. He’s got this great aura around him. And it’s strange, thinking that he was once this weapon of mass destruction…and how he’s changed… That’s really strange, too…not that it’s a bad thing, but… I can’t help but wonder what motivated him to completely switch sides and all? …Maybe it’s his extreme emotional sensitivity. You know, like how he fell in love with me and everything. But he’s so hard to figure out. I mean, I can understand Marik and Bakura perfectly, but Chaos… maybe it’s just because he’s not human. But then again… Chaos may be incredibly difficult to understand emotionally at times, but when he opens up his heart to you, that’s a whole different story. It’s one of those things you can’t explain in our limited language. Like the emotions you get in a Cherubell morph. You know how they say that if you think about the meaning of life and all these unexplainable things too much, you go mad? Well, here’s something enough to drive you (or at least me) completely crazy, then. You know that really powerful emotion you get when you’re really in love with someone? Focus on that, and let it completely take over. Then go into Cherubell morph, and then go into the same room with Bakura in his Cherublack morph, Marik in his Visochu morph, and Chaos in his Angel form when they’re all feeling the same thing, same high intensity. Then reaallyy focus on that. I swear, it’s absolutely insane. I know how it feels, too!! Can you spell i-n-c-i-d-e-n-t? Okay, I think I’ve bothered you enough for one day ;) lol!! And- holy Sheboygan, I think I’m missing Megas XLR. Not good! So- Sayonara!


Observe! My own Chaos Zero wallpaper! It’s so kawaii.


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Nov. 29 2004

Well, hello again. Just felt like writing today. I probably would have yesterday, too, but yesterday I was really too depressed to do anything. Not anymore, though, yes, so don’t worry. ~.^ However, I am in one of my philosophical moods today. Yes, I can hear AMG screaming in agony all the way from here. Sorry. ~ Anyway. Remember the Hokthai from around 2002? …You know, I really shouldn’t say that. They’ve been an active part of the Dream World and all since then, but I guess it is fair to say that as their main burst in link productivity was around 2002…but! Not anymore!!  Yes, that’s right. The Hokthai are back. And, as can be expected, they’re better than ever. And since my links weren’t very strong back in 2002 the storyline was a bit vague in the novel, remember? But! It was correct. For example, Yvonna and Vulon and the Soul Harp were correct, as was Yvonna meeting the Hokthai by teleporting herself (by means of the Harp) to a demolition of the building in which they had been staying. Remember now? Yes, you remember now, eh. But—a few things that I never knew two years ago were the seven different kinds of robots, the green stealth Hokthai, and the pink messenger Hokthai. And although I hadn’t been sure of it at the time, my knowledge of an orange spider Hokthai was true. Indeed! But the [complete] storyline is actually very beautiful, and although Hokthai seems to be more along the lines of a shonen style anime/manga thing, it’s actually a pretty touching and- dare I say controversial?- story. Now, a brief note on what I just said. On the Hokthai storyline/anime/manga being rather moving, well, you’ll just have to read it yourself, ha ha! …okay, okay. I’ll drop you
a hint.  You see, the story revolves around- well. See, now I almost spit out the plot-and possibly a hint at the ending, too-because of YOU and your cursed curiosity!! …well, I’m curious too, so I’m sort of being hypocritical there... However! No words for you on the Hokthai storyline! Because unless you’re Yvonna, Vulon, one of the eight main Hokthai, or me, you probably (HOPEFULLY) know nothing about it. I hate you sentence fragments. … Now listen to me, you cursed fools!!! You’re making me talk about the Hokthai like they’re some fictional type thing, which they’re NOT, mind you cursed psychiatrists, and not you fellow psychotics and schizophrenics out there because you probably understand me perfectly, a-ha! But enough of that. If you people out there are that anxious to find out about the Hokthai and read the story and the manga and watch the anime in a few years (I hope ) then bless your hearts, because it’s really a sincere honor for people to appreciate us. In saying us I mean not only the Hokthai, too, but also the J-Monsters and E*Girls and everyone else, because we’re all very grateful to you. All right, all right. Enough heartfelt appreciation. Save it for the Oscar speech. ~ Because as of now, it’s 8:58, and that means I’m going to need to get off, my friends. *sighs deeply* Ah, that felt good. I haven’t ranted for so long in quite a while. But you have to admit, it’s darn fun!!  He he keh, and I know you enjoy it too, ha! Yes, my ranting is always good to read. Read an entry every day and I guarantee that you’ll be in better health, ha haa!! When I get older I’m going to conduct a study that will PROVE TO THE WORLD that ranting is good for you!! Yes! That’s another one of my schizophrenic dreams, yes.  All right, now see here, friends? My attempt at closing up took…mm, seven lines?? Okay. Now it’s for real. Good night. ~

Now see here! This is a Bitmap Paint pic of the main Hokthai. Pretty cute, eh?  No, really. I like how he came out.
He looks really good here, anyhow…I drew a really pretty pic of him in my red dragon tablet yesterday, too. Someday I’ll scan that, too, and put it on here. 