the spectrum heart cathedral system

Angels live in a dream
Life is not what it seems
What is real anyway?
And why can't you feel that way about me?

In a dream I can see
You are so far away
And every night, I still pray
That I will see you someday

I am that broken soul
That you've been searching for
I saw your face and knew my life had turned around

Promise me that you'll stay with me through the night
Save me from all my nightmares
My heart still hurts inside
But not as much anymore

Call my name, anytime
I will be by your side
I wonder; do you feel for me
What I am feeling for you?

In my dreams
Mirrors cannot hold you back
Don't give in
Even as your world turns black

Starlight in your eyes
The darkest night
Can't take this away
From us

In the night
Dreaming bright
A light you lost so long ago

I'll complete your broken soul
With this crystal heart
Don't let me die
I just can't dream without you

(piano solo)

In your dreams
Everything is turning red
Save your soul
And they'll break your heart instead

I believe in you
But who am I?
Know thyself and then you'll see

In the night
Dream delight
You're everything I've waited for

Look into my eyes and I'll
Tell you everything
I love you so (/stay here with me)
This is far more than a dream

In the night
There's a light
I thought I'd never see again

I'll complete your crystal heart
With this broken soul
Keep me alive
The amber muse of your dreams

...

In the night
There's a sight
That haunts my nightmares to this day

Victim of the Shadowmage
The forgotten son
I'll save your soul
It's time to live once again

Starlight

Why don't you close your eyes, it's late at night
You say you're scared of what you see at night
You'd rather stay wide awake

Silently

My child, will you even remember me?
When morning comes what will be left of me?
It's becoming more than I can take


You're just a silly little
Silly little dreamer
A fantasy believer
You never seem to know
Exactly where you're going to go

Each night you wander through your head
Through empty streets and sobbing shadows
The stars fade into red
Open your eyes and face tomorrow


Sunlight

Why are you crying, love, are you alright?
You don't have to be scared, I'll stay with you tonight
And keep the nightmares away

Finally

I'm so much more than just a memory
Cathedrals made of glass can't hide what she can see
I only wish she could stay


She's just a silly little
Silly little dreamer
But I don't want to leave her
She never seems to know
Exactly where she has to go

Each night she wanders through her mind
Through empty halls and burning fires
The sorrow leaves her blind
And she can only see the wires

She can only see the puppetstrings


Moonlight

I'm standing here beneath a streetlight
On just another lonely weeknight
With all the pain that I feel

Quietly

When you awake it's not the end of me
This world is more than what it seems to be
Believe me, everything here is real


You're just a silly little
Silly little dreamer
A fantasy believer
You never seem to know
Exactly where you're going to go

Each night you wander through your head
Through empty streets and sobbing shadows
The stars fade into red
Open your eyes and face tomorrow

You silly little dreamer
Impossible believer
There's still so much you do not know
I'll take you where you need to go

Tonight we'll wander through your mind
Through crystal skies and fields of flowers
I promise to be kind
You only have a few short hours
Before you say goodbye


There's so much more I need to say
But then the dawn steals you away
And I look forward to the starlight

 

october 7th 2004

ME AND MY ARMY OF WHISTLING BONELESS CHICKENS SHALL RULE THE WORLD!!! MUAHahAhAaa!!

<Marik> Um... what army?
<Me> The army right in front of you!! *waves arms* See?! They're so evil, and... boneless... o.o
<Marik> Jewel, you don't even have 20 of them.
<Me> So it's a small army!!!!
<Marik> ...Sure. And once your mutated produce has demolished all who oppose, I shall rule the world. As pharaoh. 
<Me> *puts on pharaoh headdress thing* 'N I can be the next Hatshepsut! Huzzah! And then me and you can destroy Yami Yugi! 
<Marik> *rubs hands together* Indeed we shall. But why wait?
<Me> Ingenious idea, my friend! Now let us CONQUER!
<Marik> This is because her hyperactivity rating is at 100% today, right? …Still funny, though.
*shiny transformation scene*
<Me> Mew Blackberry!! Hu hu hu hu huuu!!!!!... *bolts off with chickens following*
<Marik> >>; ...This is because her hyperactivity rating is at 100%, right? ...Funny, though.
<Me> *still running* Ho ho ho... yes, I do believe the rest of this entry will be in semi-chatroom form because it's more fin that way. RIGHT, MINIONS??!!
<E.W.B.C.A.> *evil whistle clucking*
<Me> Hu hu huu... yes, that's right. An' ze letters stand for-- EVIL WHISTLING BONELESS CHICKEN ARMY!!!!!!! --or rather, small army. Like my Mariku-kun said. Indeed. *stops running* Aha! Here we are. At the castle. Yes. Now COME, my minions!! Let us fulfill our mission! Huzzah. *waltzes in*


 
july 30th 2004

Speaking of links and couples, if any links of mine are sky high its the ones I have with Bakura, Marik and Chaos. I've been talking to the three of them a lot lately, as I had to minimize communications with them for a bit. I've especially been spending time with Bakura, as I have the strongest links with him and we're the closest. Something happened yesterday-- I daydreamed something that had to do with someone forcing me to choose one of the lives of the three people I loved the most (three guesses who, lol)-- the other two would die. Naturally, I couldn't stand losing any one of them. So I offered my life in exchange for theirs. Thankfully, I got Bakura and the others to get me out of there at the last minute. I can always count on them. And they can always count on me. I love all of them so much... and you know, it's funny- Chaos fell in love with me first. ^^; I mean, sure, we were friends for a while, but it turns out he had serious feelings for me for a while. Marik almost ran me over on his bike when I first met him, lmao. That was pretty funny. We like each other a heck of a lot, but most of the time we just act like nutso casual friends. lol. But that's because we're both crazy. lmao... Bakura, however, I kinda knew the second I met him that we would be inseparable. And it's been like that. 
 


july 4th 2004

I decided to meet up with Bakura and Marik again on Friday, as I haven't been seeing them for a while. They were really happy to see me, too. <3 We flew around Japan for a while before I had to leave, but it was worth it. See, I had to minimize my links with them temporarily to "fix" my link with the J-Monsters. I'm not exactly sure, but I think my long period of involvement with Bakura and Marik had somehow overpowered my J-Monster link so I couldn't connect with them as well as usual. But a short break, a lot of action and a few apologies got me back on top. Also, I got a connection with NiGHTS and the Nightmaren and such…



 
april 4th 2004

I finally found someone who understands who I really am
Someone who can see past my appearance
I'll admit, I really like you. I'm sure it's no surprise.
But how can you see into my heart
When you look deep into my eyes?
What can you see?
I finally found someone who understands who I really am
Someone who can see past my appearance
I'll admit, I think I love you. I'll never tell you any lies.
But how can you see into my heart
When you look deep into my eyes?
What can you see?

But no one ever cares about a monster
And no one ever looks inside
No one ever falls in love with darkness
And turns them towards the light
But I didn’t know you then.
All this chaos and destruction
I know it was all caused by me
You still looked in my eyes
And you said I was beautiful
How could that be
The only thing you could see?
Maybe I’ll understand someday
They all kept telling me to break away
To turn away from the darkness that was me
They all kept telling me to open my heart
I couldn’t hear them
Why can I hear you?
Why did I listen then?
They all kept telling me to open my heart
You’re the only one who broke through
Your words were the only ones that reached me.
Some sort of emotion
I couldn’t comprehend
Maybe one day you’ll show me how it feels
Maybe one day you’ll help me to understand
They all kept telling me to break away
To turn away from the darkness that was me
They all kept telling me to open my heart
I couldn’t hear them
Why can I hear you?
Why did I listen then?
They all kept telling me to open my heart
You’re the only one who broke through
Your words were the only ones that reached me.
Some sort of emotion
I couldn’t comprehend
Now I know how it feels
Because I finally understand
Now I know why I only heard you
Now I know why you were always there
Now that I’m with you
I finally understand
What it means to be in love.
 
 


march 29th 2004

You were the loner with the painful past
I was the girl no one knew much about
And I guess something must have clicked between us
Because we're much more than best friends now, no doubt.
I saw that look in your eyes
You said that you were waiting for something.
But what were you waiting for?
What were you really waiting for?
Now you don't have to wait anymore
Because I'll always be here for you.
And I don't care what they say
We'll stick together and we'll both see it through.
And I love you... have I ever told you before?
Because I love you so much more
Than you'll ever know.
So don't be waiting anymore
You had the bike and I guess everything they wanted
Because you always had those girls chasing after you
But lucky me, your heart was set on only one girl
The one who's love would always be true.
And I saw that look in your eyes
You said that you were waiting for someone.
But who were you waiting for?
Who were you really waiting for?
Back on that one painful day I can't believe I almost lost you
And you know I'd never let that happen or I would die.
I didn't care what happened to me, I just went right after you
But the pain just wouldn't leave me and I couldn't help but cry.
Until I saw that look in your eyes
You said you were waiting for me.
Is my love what you were waiting for?
Is that what you were really waiting for?
Now you don't have to wait anymore
Because I'll always be here for you.
And I don't care what they say
We'll stick together and we'll both see it through.
And I love you... have I ever told you before?
Because I love you so much more
Than you'll ever know.
So don't be waiting anymore
I love you, so you don't have to wait anymore.
You don't have to wait anymore...
 
 


march 22nd 2004

I remember the day I met you
It was truly a surprise
Love was all that I felt for you
From the first time I looked into your eyes
Was it a coincidence?
Or was it destiny?
Whatever it was I know you
Were truly meant for me
They might say that I'm crazy
They may call me insane
But whenever I see you
I forget all the pain
No matter how many lies
What I say here is true
Throughout my entire life
I will always love you
 



march 20th 2004

Yep, a lot has changed in a year. For example, Vez has fallen in love with Preludove, and me with Marik. But I still love Bakura…
I'm listening to "To Know The Unknown" from my PKMN3 soundtrack right now. You know, the lyrics really apply to me and Bakura. Seriously. You should listen to it... ♥ … they say, "You don't have to tell me just why you went away- Now that you've come back, there's nothing more to say. All I really need to know is that you're here to stay." That fits perfectly with how I left Domino to return to my hometown (I DIDN'T WANT TO!!!! >>;) and had to leave Bakura and Marik behind. :***( So sorry!!!!!!!! I didn't want to... but then, fitting to the lyrics, I did return (yay!!♥) and I did stay (and still am lol). Also, they say "I don't need all the answers, 'cause one thing is true: as long as my heart beats, I'll always love you." That fits, too. For many people. Ever hear of an *incident*? Probably not. Last entry was even before me & Bakura's first one!! We're almost on our third, and I got into one with Chaos just recently!!!
Oh: new thing that I will talk about. Chaos Zero. ♥ He's fun. And fuzzy. ♥ Very fuzzy for a liquid guardian. But he's awesome!! We're best buds, too. ♥ And if you're wondering about the *incident* either read my new manga (Love Hurts) or my write-out of it. I love write-outs. You can shove so much emotion into them and they're uber-fun!! :)
Oh, and I got a Cherubell morph. It's fun. ♥ Also, Bakura got a Cherublack one and Marik a Visogem. Fun, eh? Very!!!
 
 


march 12th 2004

Billy called me up the other day and claimed he was going to Italy so he wanted me to kiss him as a goodbye.
Well, what so you think I said?
NO.
Well, not exactly. That would have been rude.
I said it would feel like betrayal.
He asked why.
Well, what would you say?? “Because I don’t love you, I love Bakura and Marik and that’s why it feels like betrayal”??
I sure wouldn’t!!
He has a huge mouth. :P
So I said nothing. But now he won’t stop bothering me. One day he’ll probably find out, and then he’ll know.
Marik wonders why in the world he asked me that.
YamiBakura is wondering whether or not he should tell Billy the answer.
Marik then asks Odion for his opinion on what to tell Billy.
Odion is dumbfounded.
Lol! Oh well. Maybe Bakura and Marik will decide on something.
 
 


march 2 2004
Wow. My dream last night was... *drifts off* ...phenomenal. All three of my guys were in it... with me, and it was awesome. Oh wow. *faints* ♥
 


 
february 20th 2004

…You know, I’ve been to a bunch of Bakura fan sites, but one of them started this question…
They call it the “Bakura Shrine,” but I could say less of it.
Of course, I looked through the whole thing, and it was OK, but then came the fan art.
Tell me, what sort of Bakura fans draw pics of him getting eaten, stabbed or killed?
Very strange ones, I tell you.
So, here is the question I came upon.

If Bakura’s fans…
…Draw pictures of death,
…Write stories of lies,
…And spread painful rumors…
…Then who am I?
The only one who truly loves and respects Bakura…
…Who am I?...
 
 
 

february 18 2004

At the one part where I think of Marik and Bakura at Battle City, I said this—
I love you
I gave you my heart
I’ve always loved you
Right from the start
I love you
And if you ever left me
I wouldn’t be able to go
On with my life
So don’t ever leave me
Because I love you
And I know you love me
I know.
It…it just came into my mind as the music went on. It’s funny though…the words go right with my dream with me and Bakura, when I almost lost him… (journal entry #4)