take a deep breath and... (wip)

[prismaticbleed]

Whoa. Talk about having a lot happen at once.

When 2012 began, I knew it was going to be big. I just didn't know how.

January (the 1st was TRIPLE connections. MAJOR focus on Chaos and I this month. Big creativity spike, oneword/ DW history/ Hokthai movies/ drawing again especially. First steps in finally fixing the pink level. then a horrible meltdown on the 17th, lingered for over a week. 25th tried to 'amend' that. that night i started 'talking' to god. last few days were STILL trying desperately to fix the pink level with Chaos, overcoming second-guessing now)

February (the 1st was the GOLD connection. next week or so was pink catharsis. starting to 'disconnect' from downstairs life. on the 10th we found the blood lotus cathedral. horrible 2am hack on the 13th. )

March (lent! forced downstairs focus, especially with schoolwork overwhelming me. food problems all this month. also 'away from home' almost all month, took a huge emotional toll on me. major spiritual focus.)

April (holy saturday night was the high point. major focus on spiritual growth, also tons of reading! ISLAND. computer crash forcing me to let go of things. triple 'projection hack' on the 15th, fallout for two weeks! the 19th orange revelation changed everything, helped me heal. started typing on the 98, HUGE progress. expo on the 28th.)

May (lots of dreams this month. 8th was with celebi, FINALLY healed the fallout from april 15th!! amazing meditation on the 9th. started letting go of more things. then expo on the 19th! creativity boost from january came back as well.)

Now we are entering June, the halfway point of the year, and the focus in my life seems to have again switched accordingly.
(now sudden 'worry' focus? food and school and jobs again. old 'fears' i haven't dealt with thanks to inner focus, do it son!)


(continue!)


I am oddly tired though. I want to sleep, and dream, for as long as possible.