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JAYCE LAURIE


Hey there, you tragic disaster. You doing okay?

Yeah, I suppose so. I'm just really upset about how blind I was in the past, though, and I'm worried that maybe I'm not seeing things now either.

Hey hey hey, don't you DARE get all hesitant on me.
We deal with our main problems. Don't worry about that. You're not being blind, not by a long shot. If anything, you're finally seeing things clearly.
Be careful. I don't want anyone... well. I don't want you being bloody brutalized anymore.

...You know, it's weird. You say these things and I believe you, then something happens and I get all 'emotional' and then I think you're lying. BUT, as soon as said 'emotional situation' clears up and I look back on it, it hits me just how right you were.
Why does it always happen that way? Am I really that doubtful, or am I forcing myself to deny the truth for some reason?

Because those 'emotional situations' are simply bloody red herrings. They're those false euphorias you hate so much. Don't tell me you're cheapening yourself on those too?
And yeah, you're doubtful because you're insecure and because 'everyone else wants to run your life.' Forget them. Be you.
As for denying the truth, that ties in with your doubt, but it's a heck of a lot worse. It needs to stop before you kill yourself for good.
Speaking of, are you stable enough to channel lately? Because I really want to finish that freaking Xanga session but you haven't exactly been... well. You haven't been doing so hot, to say the absolute bloody least.