May 22nd, 2017

[prismaticbleed]

 (Chaos Zero, 100%. ♥)



outside, in some sort of town square area, loose crowd about, seemed nervous but not agitated. i was looking for Chaos Zero-- i "couldn't find him" but i had this strong feeling that he was supposed to be with me there. 
as i was worrying about how to find him, the crowd anxiety picked up-- big planes flying overhead, military? thinking of "what really matters if I die now," settled on GOD. brief existential depression feeling, worrying if this meant loving anything BUT God was "wrong," but the thought was making me feel sick. pushed it aside. 
made a "hand phone" call to my dad, while still looking up at the sky, feeling determined now in the wake of that upset. immediately asked dad if he had seen my "partner" as i couldn't find him-- then said that was too paltry a term & flat-out called him my "wife-husband."

next thing i remember, i went in building nearby, japanese fellow "as" my dad? with a bunch of kids? hugging them & reassuring them of safety, re-directing them to new homes? I think I asked him about Chaos too. he didn't seem to grasp english too well but i somehow got the point across and he said no. scene was all very vague and confusing. i was starting to worry, feeling the fabric of the dream getting surreal, and went back outside.

began walking through crowds in the square again, looking around at the scenery and trying to figure out where to go next.
THEN suddenly, from this old "Sonic Unleashed"-esque stone gothic building in the square (reminded me of this in terms of general shape and structure), Chaos Zero rushes out looking around-- he sees me, exclaims "Jewel!" and runs over to embrace me. I'll never forget the look on his face.


(next bits blurry)
suddenly, "lugia" balloon crash? from over fields to left. hits bouncy castle thing full of kids, at the edge of the square? started looking like a boardwalk. Chaos and I getting the kids out & sending them to hide in this "below-groundlevel" garden area behind us? parents looking for them, but they were unkind? kids did not want to go with them, they were very scared. I remember genuinely considering "adopting" 2 little boys; one had gorgeous sunset-amberpink hair

then going inside somewhere (after kids?) holding a shark-bag?? literally a purse thing but it was a literal shark. bizarre. building inside looked like UPMC hospital groundfloor (chapel one) crossed w/ aquarium and the "boyle" house on dishonored? big spiraly stairwell going up, i was singing some "crooner" song that was REALLY gorgeous & sweet; painting Chaos & Robotnik on side of stairwell? like a mural. Chaos had this thin beaded necklace of sorts (very long, wound about hands) as a "weapon"?

-outside by old fam restaurant, guy parking his motorcycle; snowy out, "sprayed it w/ glass" to "lock" it up? my dad was there, laughing at how that was such an unneeded extra expense that new tech required? he took the spraycan and sprayed my back with it, "drawing a design"= orange-white, like bleach; white monkey-mouse thing on cross? crucified. smiling serenely, a demon being "forced out" of its lower reproductive area? nearby woman said it "represented what was happening to me."

then in a dining room in church basement, like OLotE parish; supposedly still UPMC. digital clock on wall kept skipping, rewinding, resetting time. it was tuesday's lunch meal= pizza, chocolate ensure, a salad with ranch dressing. i had an extra combo-snack exchange to use and asked for Doritos but somehow I "couldn't" eat them due to the messed-up time constrictions? i stayed after when everyone left; clock skipped back several times to impossible numbers= 72:36, -91.55, etc. numbers began to degenerate into broken symbols and then the clock died. i mentally asked celebi if she could "sneak in" and "rewind time" for me to before the meal began, so i could actually eat it at a wise, slow pace without rushing to meet a "broken clock;" unstated conception of celebi being able to "HEAL" that flow of time by the simple fact that SHE "touched it," even just to rewind it. oddly it also felt that the digital clock hadn't affected the present time flow in reverse, BUT had effectively rewound itself to "prehistoric" times? i actually felt worried about it, as if it were a conscious entity.

time did rewind-- assumedly celebi did so remotely; i felt her presence but didn't see her-- and now everyone else was eating but i was standing up at the far left of the room, against the wall, the up-stairwell behind me. chaos zero was there in front of me, looking exhausted like from worry & work, but joyful and relieved to see me... that sort of "profoundly grateful" quiet joy he shows. i kissed him but he returned it in honesty, whereas in last week's dream he was too sad to return it despite honesty-- and that deep love in my heart (oh how i missed it so) became so gorgeously brilliant that it hurt and i remember half-mumbling that "our hearts needed to be inside each other" because nothing else would accomplish the transcendent intimacy my entire soul was desperately seeking then. so we actually did try a soul-merge (overlay-style; body-of-light concept) and i recall there were a few people nearby giving us looks but i paid that no mind; all i knew, and all i was, was love.