prismaticbleed | july 28th 2015 (Reply)

today. the 28th.

at work. javier worried about red realms.
he's so mentally stuck in the massacre aftermath, it keeps reflecting in the realm. apocalyptic city, everything red and dead and empty. he seems really wrecked over it.

some e.d. abuse but not bad today! that's a relief.
we're managing to deal with this without hatred and anger anymore which is great.

laurie and "tiger lily" talking late at night.
laurie got one of the e.d. girls to listen to her again.

spent most of the day after work painting shirts again.

still lots of frustrated anger I don’t know what to do with, or where its from?

tried to fix javier's subeta avatar. nose is off but otherwise looks pretty okay?
fixed amara's color at long last.
need to try "drawing" everyone else's avatars as the site is basically permadown

talking to laurie at night
dreams feel like HOME to me
I've been feeling like isabelle lately; going through the day waiting to sleep again, my daily memories and thoughts full of vivid memories and sensory data from sleep.
this is why I adore our location memories-- they're always empty, places always vast and winding, JUST like in dreams.
I can't walk through dream memory, it's always live data, there's people there. that's interesting.

ashen STILL being triggered, MAJORLY.
reading http://lightraye.livejournal.com/565846.html and flashbacks happened for her
wreckage showed up to fight off the "shadow julie" for her (still blonde with bubblegum btw)

thinking about ties between cels and czs again
with the lime symbol on her chest, cel looks like she has a ruby in her too
no idea what the aqua symbol is yet, only one we havent found. sky is tentative but interesting; right now it feels like an infinity symbol??? unexpected! but with kyanos, it's oddly fitting, being hope in the face of annihilation. sort of the infinite expanse of the sky, of breath and life, of hope itself. of blue stretching on forever.

★ PLAGUE/TAR INFLUENCES IN LEAGUEWORLDS????
wondering if the plague is eating at justice, what with how I keep seeing him oddly numb?
upsetting. MAYBE FALSE TIMELINES.
remember you must TUNE INTO what feels HEART-TRUE and MAKE THAT THE CORE TIMELINE!!

★ take some time to tune into SYSTEM CORE RESONANCES to remember "who I am"
the bad long-haired teen girl fronters have been out too much, screwing up the overlay and giving in to every hacker that they meet. THEY ARE TOXIC AND SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO FRONT.

but who am "I"? who is out most? who SHOULD be?
jewel is solid, get a grip for that feeling.

bottom line, figure out WHO the current core is, what they look/feel like, and then let them BE.