may 26 2015

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I'm updating on purpose and without crisis today because heaven knows we need more general, bright entries in here.

We've started keeping a dietary journal again. Those help a lot, because not only do they help keep track of things and therefore force coherence, but lots of people tend to write in them, and they actually end up being both very informative and very fun to look back on. Daily logs of ANY sort are incredibly beneficial; it's a much-needed bit of personally sincere order.

I'm considering going back and re-reading through 2013 and 2014, because they're mostly missing from active memory? I think this is the first summer that we're aware of having summer problems. Normally I guess we would just dissociate out, and I know the lockout happened during summer 2013 I think? Something did. Summers are strange and kind of dangerous. I still haven't finished that entry. I will in time. It's strange is all. Plus I dislike posting that sort of info because it's somewhat... not embarrassing, but close? I'm too aware of how my words can be twisted sometimes.

We're still working on Parnassus, and Rosewindow is talking again. We're rather fiercely removing the Tar influence from them both; it's been infesting things really badly, and it's very disturbing.
Either way we're now aware of what's not true, we can feel it, we just need to STOP and LOOK and FEEL what's actually happening. That's the quickest way out of hack attempts too, is to somehow force awareness in because then you KNOW and you can RUN. The only problem is when you get fronters in who realize they are in danger and still try to justify it, or force "good" into the situation in a desperate pacificistic hope that they can somehow transmute or inherently change the event. It doesn't work, it doesn't work that way. We're trying to spread as much safe info around with the drivers as we can, so they realize that no matter what their mindset is, the actual literal event is STILL DANGEROUS and they need to get the hell out of there.

This apparently happened on Saturday. I'm wondering if that strain is part of why we ended up in the hospital the next morning, haha. I haven't read it but I'm going to have to now. That's absolutely a new thing.

What else. Did we go driving today? No. But we were on the porch! We had to do all the pixel avatars for that entry, haha. Or at least an artist did, I didn't. Really cool that they all got done though.
The best thing about summer is being out in the sunlight. The worst thing is the overwhelming triggerness of it. We really do need to write about that. Ah well, in its own time.

I do want to focus on the positive from now on. Time is up in the air, now. How much do we have? We don't know. But we have to be careful, and we have to be smart, and we do have to make some sacrifices, and we do have to make a LOT more effort to take care of ourself, AND to do lots more creative work and share it. But that part's easy, haha.

All right it really is terribly late and I don't want to end up in the ER again so we're going for the night.

Jay wants me to write that Infinitii appears to be completely healed now and he's "belovedly ecstatic" over it. He says mention that Chocoloco still has that "bite" taken out of his side and no one wrote about that yet. Ryman's daemon's name is Styx or Lethe, Jay says he can't quite tell yet because it could be either? He also says that around 2AM on Sunday he was trying to sleep but the body was terribly sick, and Chaos was there and he was profoundly worried, but Jay could see him "more clearly than he has in years" probably? He's like really really happy about that. He also says to remind whoever in our System reads this besides him to update the dream journal for heavens sakes. And that's it.

Now like I said we need sleep. Good night!