062013

[prismaticbleed]

I finally got back in contact with everyone in Central for good last night; thanks to Laurie and Leon spearheading the operation.

The downstairs sub-system (we're referring to it as such for now; the term makes sense) has been extremely loud lately, which is unfortunate as most of that system is violent and/or downright destructive. They also forbid access to Central when they're fronting, hence the trouble I've been having getting through at all.

Nevertheless, I'm learning. I've been given a lot of responsibilities, and the one at the top of the list is "ensure the Central System's existence." Since the three (?) systems in this body are all at war right now, that role of mine is progressively getting more difficult. But I'm doing my best, at all times, however I can.

-J.I.

 

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@ 04:25 pm

 

I'm just reblogging this semi-recent archive entry of ours (April 7th) as a major personal reminder.

There's a LOT of important info in this entry that's fallen out of our conscious awareness since the Downstairs voices started showing themselves in late April, especially considering color roles. (This also explains why we haven't had any Xanga sessions ince then, actually-- too much noise.)


Personally, I forgot about this entire incident-- heck, I'm not even sure if I experienced it entirely, as I can't access the memories outside of reading about them. So I'm glad something told me to go back and review this stuff. It's arguably more relevant now than it was then.

I'm still in recovery mode but today is going well. Here's hoping we can finally fix this splintered mess for good, soon.


-J.I.