still looking

[prismaticbleed]

 

For an answer, that is.

I apologize for not having been around (as if anyone reads this, aha)... but life's been maddening as usual.

I don't want to rant about it all, but let me just say that I'm still having problems with people accepting my bizarre identity (asexual neutrois, in case you're a new reader), and I'm still having far too many Julie problems.

I've been listening to a great deal of Japanese hip-hop (Nujabes, Nomak, Tsutchie) lately. Good stuff.

I've also been buying a ton of Celebi stuff online. Celebi is, to me, a literal personification of the joy, wonder, and freedom of my youth. Not only that, but she was also my persona when I was 11 and I loved her to pieces. I still do.

Laurie's been bleeding for weeks. I'm scared to death. She says she's dying, and I believe her.
It's been 4 days since Julie last abused me, and God help me but I plan to hold out for the next 17 days this time (I once heard that, if you can do something for 21 straight days, it will become a habit). I've been trying to do that since last January, and haven't succeeded yet... it hurts. It really does. I feel like a total failure.

Regardless, I need to post some more art/ writing/ photos/ music? (I have Flash and FL, it could happen) whatever on this account. You might even see some bloody Dream World stuff on here, because that series gets pretty damn scary at times, and that's the sort of thing I keep wanting to draw for some reason.
Still, I like this account very much, maybe even more than my default one.

I'm getting off-topic now, though, and I have a report to finish for tomorrow so that's top priority.

See you around, space cowboys.