prismaticbleed | pokemon quiz result (Reply)

psychic.

you’re not soft. you weren’t brought up in a way that allowed softness, not really. you’re not strong in a way that other people see much, but you are still stronger than most people. be gentle with yourself.

I… love how paradoxical this is for me. Yes, I try to cultivate ‘softer’ feelings now, but… I was raised to be hard. This is true. This is why Mewtwo has unfailingly been my heart’s bittersweet reflection since I was 9. “The circumstances of my birth” will always stand in opposite balance to softness. And I admittedly like it that way. I don’t feel safe or sincere, being too soft. I will be tender, and loving, and I will care deeply, but I am not soft. Not really. And it is worthwhile to reflect on this.

It is also why I need to be gentle with myself. It does not come naturally.

Strength is another thing I do not see in myself but others have. I am, also, admittedly afraid of my potential strength. I know I can hurt others. I have. It is far too easy, accidentally, to bruise others out of my own poor self-awareness in that respect. I am rather detached from my body, and I do not yet know how to properly gauge how it affects my environment, and vice versa– let alone how to deal with other people’s physical forms. Mewtwo, again.

But I still treasure that first movie deep in my soul. There’s hope for me, too, wretched clone and freak of nature, lonely monster still learning love. I can see enough of the future to have an unshatterable hope. The gift of life has still been given me.

My heart will soften enough. That, too, is strength.