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prismaticbleedThe Judas problem: "although he did display repentance for his errors, he seemed to be incapable of lasting remorse." His heart KEPT VACILLATING between God and the world, and worldly interests KILL CONTRITION. A mind set on below cannot ponder the above; a heart set on ambition cannot feel compunction. Someone who loves pleasure will not tolerate a pricking conscience.
God, my curse is the curse of Judas, and I've never suffered it before. Where has this avarice come from? It's nothing I want at all. It's compulsive, like all my vicious sins. It is of the devil. It is a spiritual infection, a corrupt infestation, a hellish parasite. It is horrifying, a foreign entity entirely.
I've noticed my self-image is KEY. Imagining myself as a Jewel Creature IMMEDIATELY stabilizes my soul into virtuous desires and behavior, whereas in stark contrast, seeing myself as this brown-haired girl makes me feel DOOMED TO SIN and it's hell.
The rich suffer want and go hungry, But those that seek the Lord lack no blessing. This means that even if I have no food and I am physically hungry, I paradoxically will not suffer want, Nor will I be distressed by a lack of physical food. Indeed I shall not hunger at all in truth for I will accept this temporary physical famine as being from the hand of the Lord. And trusting in him even in this physical hunger, Spiritually I shall be completely filled and glad, Therefore I shall be full of blessings even if my stomach is empty and I shall not complain nor shall I be dismayed.
Through the Lord I can endure anything for all things are given to me from his holy hand and if I accept them as such and graciously live for his good will in every present moment despite persecution trial and suffering, I shall never actually suffered or hunger or even die because these temporary hardships are just fat temporary and if we endure them for the sake of Christ knowing that he is the one who gives them to us we shall attain eternal glory and riches of heaven when this brief period of struggle is over. This is why the Christian has eternal joy in every circumstance completely unshakable and grateful for everything that happens to them whether we may label it good or bad. The Christian knows that Christ is with them in every circumstance and that he never leaves him alone therefore they can endure every event in their lives with a peace that surpasses all understanding. They know that God's ultimate end for their life in every circumstance is their sanctification and the polishing of the jewel of their soul therefore they accept even the most Difficult circumstances with genuine joyful gratitude for they understand that this is always the ultimate purpose.
God, my curse is the curse of Judas, and I've never suffered it before. Where has this avarice come from? It's nothing I want at all. It's compulsive, like all my vicious sins. It is of the devil. It is a spiritual infection, a corrupt infestation, a hellish parasite. It is horrifying, a foreign entity entirely.
I've noticed my self-image is KEY. Imagining myself as a Jewel Creature IMMEDIATELY stabilizes my soul into virtuous desires and behavior, whereas in stark contrast, seeing myself as this brown-haired girl makes me feel DOOMED TO SIN and it's hell.
The rich suffer want and go hungry, But those that seek the Lord lack no blessing. This means that even if I have no food and I am physically hungry, I paradoxically will not suffer want, Nor will I be distressed by a lack of physical food. Indeed I shall not hunger at all in truth for I will accept this temporary physical famine as being from the hand of the Lord. And trusting in him even in this physical hunger, Spiritually I shall be completely filled and glad, Therefore I shall be full of blessings even if my stomach is empty and I shall not complain nor shall I be dismayed.
Through the Lord I can endure anything for all things are given to me from his holy hand and if I accept them as such and graciously live for his good will in every present moment despite persecution trial and suffering, I shall never actually suffered or hunger or even die because these temporary hardships are just fat temporary and if we endure them for the sake of Christ knowing that he is the one who gives them to us we shall attain eternal glory and riches of heaven when this brief period of struggle is over. This is why the Christian has eternal joy in every circumstance completely unshakable and grateful for everything that happens to them whether we may label it good or bad. The Christian knows that Christ is with them in every circumstance and that he never leaves him alone therefore they can endure every event in their lives with a peace that surpasses all understanding. They know that God's ultimate end for their life in every circumstance is their sanctification and the polishing of the jewel of their soul therefore they accept even the most Difficult circumstances with genuine joyful gratitude for they understand that this is always the ultimate purpose.
