prismaticbleed | fragmented thoughts: may 2010 (Reply)

05 May 2010 @ 12:23 pm

I just found myself playing Sonic Adventure, walking through Mystic Ruins with Amy and trying not to burst into tears. What's going on?

I've been having an awesome week, things are going well and I've been in a consistently good mood... but I'm also more emotionally fragile-- even to extremes-- than I've been in months. I don't know what's going on.

05 May 2010 @ 10:18 pm

They've found me again.
Ever since they discovered that I was the one, they've been trying to kill me. It's frightening, because they get so close, and I can't lose my light. It's all I have.

I remember when I learned that they were killing the unicorns... locking them in the windows. They were using me to lure in more. Thank God I ran.

Sometimes I see hunters on the streets. I know by the way they look at me, checking to see if I've darkened. I don't know if I have. It terrifies me.

09 May 2010 @ 02:00 am

I looked up into the mirror and saw Johnny where I should have been.

Needless to say, I'm terrified.

09 May 2010 @ 02:07 am

She hurt me. I'm bleeding.

I'm so scared of this. Why won't she leave?

11 May 2010 @ 11:55 pm

Oh geez, heartache. This is... this is really bad.

I can't tell forgiveness from pain, either. I don't hate myself for this, not anymore; it was completely unintentional... but it hurts, it hurts so much.

Don't know whether I should laugh or cry at how ridiculous my life is sometimes. Better than being coldhearted I guess.

10 May 2010 @ 09:01 am

Ever have those days where you're so in love, that everything just hurts in some beautiful way?

Yeah. Got that right now. ♥

@ 09:24 am

I don't even know what you are,

and I love you more than anything I've ever seen.

11 May 2010 @ 11:58 pm

I hurt all over.

Where have I been?

17 May 2010 @ 10:53 pm

Why do I always feel like I'm stuck in an interim? Always between the past and the future... never truly in the present... a time-traveler forever looking for the moment they belong in.

I don't know. It's just eating at me today.

24 May 2010 @ 12:14 pm

Found a new J-Monster today, made a good deal of story progress, talked to Mel for hours, and got nose-to-nose with my neighbor's chihuahua without him trying to bite me!

And yet, despite all the good things, I still feel kind of sad. Empathy, you know.

Yes, the soul needs suffering to grow, but... sometimes it just seems way out of hand, and it hurts me terribly.

One day I'll have to tell all of my secrets too.

27 May 2010 @ 10:53 am

My dream last night was the closest thing to hell I've ever experienced.
It wasn't fire and brimstone, no... but dear God, if the real thing is even a fraction like that was...

I'm even scared to write it down. I don't know what to do.