art class

[prismaticbleed]

I have two words to say about all this.

F*cking HELL.

Do you have ANY IDEA how hard Laurie and I
are trying to fight this sort of thing?

(I'm getting sick every time I even think of art now)

Julie doesn't die easily!
And here you are
throwing THIS at us
on top of it all.

Shit.
Just because I can't stand men
doesn't mean I like women
SERIOUSLY.
I can't stand ANY of it.

I swear,
you make me draw ONE MORE MODEL
I am going to SNAP
and that won't end well.

DAMN IT, JULIE, WHY WON'T YOU DIE??



Mom won't let me
cut my hair
like Johnny
because she says that
everyone will think that
I'm a lesbian.

Well I SWEAR
the FIRST person
to call me a lesbian
is getting MY FIST
in their f*cking FACE

...well maybe not.
I couldn't hit anybody.

BUT I'LL HIT ME
DAMN STRAIGHT I'LL HIT ME
I'LL HIT ME UNTIL I BLEED




I really wish that I could fall asleep
and get lost in my head
not wake up for a long time.
(go somewhere better)


Z?
THE ETERNAL QUESTION!

Sure I like dreams
but seriously
BIOLOGY SUCKS
and humanity
makes me sick
(sometimes)
quite often

IT'S NOT A VERY NICE
FEELING
(LOSING YOUR MIND)
YOU KNOW?

It always seems to happen
when you get BLOOD
on your hands.

human blood.
your own blood.

something
SNAPS
and then that's it.

that's how Devi went
that's how I went



the screws
have come
undone


YOU CAN'T STOP IT.





So yeah.
I lost my mind
(for good)
two weeks ago
and I have had ENOUGH of this idiocy


(this is ART not PORNOGRAPHY)
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU


shit here she comes again.
I can't take two more hours of this.

 

our father
who art in heaven
hallowed be thy name
may your kingdom come
and your will be done
in all worlds
as it is in heaven
give us this day
our daily bread
and forgive us our sins
as we forgive those
who sin against us
but then what do I do
if I can forgive all of them
but find it so hard
to forgive myself?
I should be better
so why the hell am I worse?
and lead us not
into temptation
(especially the ones
our headvoices
put into our heads
whether we want them or not)
and deliver us
from evil
in all its forms
especially
ourselves.

amen