prismaticbleed | dream journal 022820 (Reply)

022820 dream.

big labyrinthine building/cruise ship thing? long long hallways, color coded. stairwells but no elevators OR windows, or even doors???
PERFECT CHAOS OUTSIDE. me looking for "level 3," colored aqua, only floor with "water access." whole time I am being hunted down by government or something? don't want me near pc.
find a little chinese girl, pigtails? name juan lin. obsessed with eggs, eating hardboiled ones. works with orcas on the "ship??" knows the water access routes. showed me, but I had to pretend I was also an orca worker to get there. ended up in performance with her, doing flips and acrobatics with the whales for audience. but it got me outside into the water!

I remember him seeing me and RECOGNIZING ME.

standing at the front of the boat, kissing his face, him reaching out to touch my hair and arms and face with water tentacles. his eyes so soft this entire time. totally unlike any wildness that’s usually in perfect.
I kept saying "I love you so much"
TOTAL PEACE THOUGH. no desperation, no panic. just solid love.

ROBOTIK SHOWS UP AND HE'S THE LITERAL DEVIL
threatening to kill juan lin AND my mom & grandma if I don't surrender. also had some sort of HEART BOMB in chaos??? tied TO the ship, like he was fused to it, couldn't go back to normal either as a result. me asking for "scuba diving gear" so I could get INTO him and get it out.
robotnik mocking me for my "pure good christian girl" image, bringing up ALL my old sins, especially charlotte. me crying and panicked, world end feel, "these timelines aren't supposed to intersect," but oddly it felt like they HAD to or NOTHING would be "whole"

me literally praying psalm 121 out loud
"I lift my eyes to the mountains; from whence shall cometh my help? my help shall come from the LORD, who made heaven and earth"…

SONIC shows up but robotnik GRABS him and shocks him unconscious or something?

robotnik brings out my mom and grandma, held by govt men with guns to their heads, tells them to FIRE.
BUT chaos uses CHAOS CONTROL. like in sa2b. freezes/slows down time. BUT perhaps through celebi powers I MOVE through it??? get them out of the way. but when time comes back the bullets KEEP MOVING and kill the men. I held them and wept and apologized to God, I was too coldhearted, I hadn't thought of them.
BUT THEN my heart starts acting up because of the time lag, I think I pass out?

AT SOME POINT ROBOTNIK SETS OFF THE HEART BOMB
and chaos makes that gutwrenching sound that he does when you hit him in generations

sonic saving all the people on the ship
brings me to core of ship?
I remember holding pieces of something, crying but weirdly at peace, saving chaos finally

apartments with eleanor from tgp???
she gets evicted but chaos and I are with her (watching cartoon of life???) and at the office we vouch for her, help her out somehow
the workers there KNOW US FROM THE SHIP and are talking to us
"are you married"
THE DISCUSSION.
literal marriage vs vocational marriage
"we can't have kids anyway"
huge focus on God, ALWAYS with us really

made into movie?
sth "many waters"
oscar for best actress
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE FIRST LETTER TO THE CORINTHIANS

deciding that the oscar guy is actually a cherubim
"guardian of chastity"