iscah meal log 051717

 

May. 17th, 2017 09:30 am

 

Breakfast= two slices of thick French toast, two butter pats, scrambled eggs, apple juice, vanilla soymilk, orange spice tea, and butter pecan Ensure-- which tastes like coconut milk toffee, and unfortunately gives me that itchy-sleepy reaction. No idea if that's a legit concern or just muted panic, but to avoid trouble I'll avoid it for now. As for the meal? I'm super happy that I got eggs again this week! ♥ Someone upstairs suggested I give the ketchup a shot, for memory's sake-- and WHOA MAN. More childhood camper flashbacks! I wonder why? Nevertheless, I was VERY pleasantly surprised at how GOOD the eggs tasted with it!! I only put it on one forkful, though-- so I'll try more tomorrow, where it'll taste even better with the potatoes & sausage. I'm oddly curious to what a sprinkle of sugar would do to the egg flavor in this meal-- would it taste like Easter cheese? I'll try that next week, too, with the strawberry Ensure! As usual, the vanilla soy was lovely-- but I have to be wary of complacency; I must love it anew & gratefully EACH day! Same with the tea: I tend to gulp it down but then I can't taste it. Oh!! What if I did half-hot to steep it first, THEN added cold to drink it? It's worth a try! But yes, that's why I have no clear data for the brand-new orange spice, and I apologize. Tomorrow's another chance-- plus it'll match that meal's flavor better; that or Friday. We'll see! Lastly, Lynne likes the apple juice. ♥ That autumn sweetness resonates with her very clearly. As for that scrumptious French toast? Just as lovely as ever! ♥ The crust was extra solid this time, which I really enjoyed, and that buttery savor over the bread's cinnamon-vanilla sweetness is so good. I do treasure it. Again, my only correction? Eating it cold! That takes away from it, really. So I'll try eating it FIRST next week, then the tea! It's great to have Good Growth Goals. On to the next meal!

Lunch= grilled cheese on wheat, vanilla Greek yogurt, lettuce & tomato, chocolate Ensure, Fig Newtons, & CHEDDAR Sun Chips! Now THAT was a cool surprise!! The Sun Chips were LOVELY-- that same warm brown wheat-corn wholesome base, but this time richened by orange warmth, bright & jovial, in the cheddar flavor! And the Fig Newtons have that seed-sprinkled, purple-black-tasting filling, with the same unique "tang" of the grapes/ raisins/ bananas! I've GOTTA find out what that is, & what other fruits have it! But the Newton cake-part was differently nice, too-- sweet & crumbly, with an almost graham-like taste? It's new and undescribed & unclear yet. I might have to deconstruct one to clarify it in the future. It does have that basic flour base-taste, though! ♥ The lettuce tasted SO GREEN!!! ♥ Even that little piece was abounding with life-taste and sunlight-vitality, and that glorious flavor of CHLOROPHYLL. I love that stuff bro. And!! I had tomato AND ketchup, so I was able to DIRECTLY COMPARE them!! Tomatoes taste pinkish red, bright with water but still tasting delicately of red's fullness; ketchup is solid red, heavy with it, and with a zap of tang and corn-sweet adding a touch of vermilion? It's new! Again, more data for you tomorrow. But first, I got some surprisingly brand-new, super cool data about the yogurt today!! The texture IS "thicker" than plain yogurt-- on the spoon and in the mouth-- BUT! It doesn't have the "frothy" mouth-result of the plain kind, because it's thicker, instead staying thicker in the mouth-- WITH MORE CULTURED TASTE!! Yes, THAT'S why I always used to say I liked Greek; now I have the reason, and I WOULDN'T have noticed, if not for the Ensure-- which straight-up tastes like soft serve chocolate ice cream! But I took a sip after tasting the yogurt, and was surprised at its heavy sweet thickness in contrast... but then, in contrast even further, in my next bite of yogurt? I COULD TASTE THE "SOUR" CULTURED FLAVOR!!! ♥ Like sour cream has-- vaguely lemony! It's AMAZING. I think I get yogurt tomorrow morning so I am DEFINITELY seeing if the strawberry is similar! And lastly, but never leastly, the GRILLED CHEESE. ♥ It's divine with tomato, but NOT ketchup-- the acidity is too overwhelming. But I only had one such bite of that! The rest was perfect: the wheat bread all butter-brushed & hard-crusted, richly grain-sweet & textured, and beautifully soft nearer the center... you can literally pull it soft off the cheese, its so fluffy delicate & lovely with a touch of salt. And the CHEESE-- melted thick & richly but NOT sticky, tasting heavy yellow-orange and salty and vividly solid with that sunny hue... perfect sandwich, dude. ♥ Praise be!!

Dinner= vegetable lasagna, a side salad (lettuce, carrot, cucumber, red cabbage, cherry tomato), French dressing, cherry pie, a vanilla Shake 'em up, and vanilla Ensure. This meal was a beautiful victory because I let go of ALL "perfectionism" paranoia (with "impressing" people; that was immature because it was afraid and I'm not anymore), as well as all shame about the act of eating in and of itself-- and I was ONLY able to do THAT by God's Grace, because those feelings only ever arise from guilt & shame & fear-- which are driven out by perfect love!! Therefore, when one actively chooses to LIVE IN THAT LOVE, it is impossible to feel vices, OR act on them!! Love and uprightness of heart are wedded; love and integrity walk hand in hand. When one begins to slip, the heart feels sick-- it has found its friends, its HOME, and dreads such a possibility of straying!! So it is actually quick & easy to mend one's conduct in such love-- the soul yearns to stay so whole, as Love is its natural state, and it is only through torturous, willful doubt & disobedience that one walks away from that haven of God!! But it is ALWAYS there to return to-- doors open wide, same as arms, same as minds... same as hearts. No harm can even approach such gates, for CHRIST IS the Gate!! But you get what I'm saying. This meal was a success because I promised to love it totally, in heart as well as deed, to heal it, me, AND Jessie. So I prayed, and God answered, and Love prevailed. ♥ I started with the salad & ate it one ingredient at a time, joyfully, AND partly with my fingertips, to pay true & total loving attention to it in reparation for all the times here that I practically inhaled the salads without tasting them. But today, I gave it my time as a gift, and it responded in kind. The cabbage TASTED violet-- a beautiful, unmistakable color flavor that I adore, but can't quite describe yet. I'll meditate on it! But it still has that lovely, rubber-crisp, water-fresh texture, a little "frothy" when chewed, & tasting vaguely peppery-- that's the white! (Just think of horseradish & radishes!) The carrots were soft-snap textured, as they were slightly "wilted," and so they weren't hard-snap like fresh ones... but they were still that happy orange-sweet of carotene, holding the tiniest undertone of red's richness, balanced brightly by their water content. The tomatoes, similarly, being cherry red, were richer than lunch's slices, a bright shiny wet red-- and the lettuce & cucumber were fresh as rain, crisp with its life, & delicately, beautifully green. The dressing still tastes its color, too-- super-light vermilion, tang and creamy rich and a little sweet! But that PIE, DUDE. The filling actually leans (fittingly!) towards cerise!! The cherries are plump and sweet-heavy red, with that cerise undertone that deepens the sweet to something more "luxurious," but still bright happy red. And the CRUST! It has that lovely flour-taste, but its golden with BUTTER, and slightly light-brown with the grain's wholesomeness in the crumbing, slightly sweet & white-plain-humble within. Together? It's LOVELY. The shake still tastes like melted ice cream-- not too sweet, surprisingly!-- and the vanilla Ensure is STILL evading me; I keep drinking the poor thing too fast. Try again tomorrow! BUT. The HUGE victory today was the LASAGNA!!! ♥ I ATE IT AS A WHOLE!! ♥♥ And, I got ALL its data!!! ♥♥♥The sauce is sweet & red, no pepper-bite like the pizza, BUT it did have pieces of bell pepper in it-- bitter-sweet but still tasting lovely with water & color. I also found TWO sweeter pieces of summer squash in it-- one yellow, one dark green! They have SUCH a good texture. As for the pasta? Think of the word "noodle"-- really!! They are SUPER SOFT-- no resistance at all, and also super soft to chew. Taste-wise, they're like butterless pierogi, and no salt? Straight-up noodle! But they're nice. And the cheese? LOVELY. The top cheese is like the pizzas-- and it has a vague swissy flavor? The ricotta tastes creamy and lightly herbal and SO NICE; no bitterness at all-- even a tad sweet! But it's 100% healed & loved now. Jessie, that one's for you!! ♥

Snack= plain, cheddar, AND salsa Sun Chips! The big shocker? I think my favorite was the PLAIN! They're all delicious, but for day-end snack, the comforting simplicity of the plain (the other 2 are so lovely-vibrant) is better, for a wind-down. But I enjoyed every bite of all three. ♥ Thank you, Lord. ♥