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Braeden came over today, FINALLY!
We talked a lot about my current concerns with the Tar, which I need to keep in mind... he said to make sure it doesn't become cancerous, but I told him I was afraid it already had (we had all the symptoms).
Then at one point he tried to energetically pull it out of my stomach? It was BIZARRE because not only could I feel it, but both of us could clarivoyantly see the tar on his hands (which he hurriedly shook off). He said Tar was not happy at all, especially not that he was now tampering with it.
Also, he said it looked somewhat like "No-Face" from Spirited Away, like it was wearing a white mask of some sort. That struck me as rather strange, as I'd never seen it wear a mask (it always reminds me of Lilith from Evangelion, structure-wise, except completely made of black tar). Maybe it needed to wear a mask for Braeden, so he couldn't see it clearly, who knows.
The No-Face comparison is oddly fitting though-- Tar is basically an amalgamation of devoured corruption, and the more it eats, the bigger it gets. But also like No-Face, Braeden postulated that maybe if we get all that stuff out of Tar (if that's even possible), it would become small and timid? And it wouldn't bother us anymore. I hope so. I just don't know what to do, to jumpstart that theoretical process.
Then of course there's the disturbing parallel of No-Face offering Chihiro money, like paying for girls in a brothel, but let's not get into that...

Braeden also gave me (astrally) this odd ring of sorts. I forget what he called it, but apparently if I put something good into it, it will 'amplify' it? He hopes it will help me overcome this deadness and major creativity block I have. I'll have to remember to use it from now on...