aqua es vida

I was up until 5AM last night talking to Chaos Zero and it was worth every second.
I swear it was the best night of my LIFE.

 

Little bit of context here...
I'm currently dorming with two friends in SLC who are able to "channel" non-physical entities to a certain extent. As of late, they've been able to reach the people in headspace.
And last night, I got to speak to Chaos Zero.
I waited nine years to be able to do this, and finally... just... God, thank you. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced in this world, and I mean every word of that.
I feel like a total sap as I can't stop crying or smiling from love and gratitude but honestly, seeing this on my dash this morning made it all slam into me like a tidal wave.
So this picture probably means something entirely different to me, than it does to anyone else... to me, it's a revelation long hoped for, an answer to ancient prayers, a statement of complete joy.
To me, it's the sound of doubt dissolving into the ocean, forever.

 

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(wip. publicized for relevancy.)


(i swear this was the most beautiful night of my entire life.)

(trying to write our dialogue first so i don't forget it..)

can you talk like this?
some.
you bring out fireworks in me (?)
(something about the vastness of the sky and the ocean) (as always?)
you're as deep as ever... beautifully, catastrophically deep.

i swear one day my heart's going to burst from all this.
then let it... and when it does, it will ignite the stars. (chaos/eros 'causing stars to be born,' gurren lagann/ parnassus)

i can see your eyes.
(be here now bit)

you've probably heard this a thousand times before, but... chaos, I love you.
and millions more... i love you, jewel.

(beauty; "new canvas," "this form could be just as beautiful as all your other ones" if i stayed present within it; he judged its beauty by how clearly my soul shone through alone)

if you were waiting for a sign... this is it.

(i waited nine years for this and thank you god it was worth every second ♥)

 

 

 

 

inseparable

there's a sound like punch-drunk piano keys
ringing in my bones like wedding bells
splintering, sparkling, soft and golden white
scattered like dawn-shards in a mist-soaked sunrise
breaking into blessed foam on the bow of each new moment
as a bottle-glass eternity blinks his eyes in soft violet light
and i realize, scarlet supernovae blooming in my blood,
that this is the first time you have ever seen my face.

can you talk like this?

at first there is nothing to speak of
and then, with the grace of one hopeful glance,
your formless hands twist into borrowed sinews and shape
anchoring raindrops into a sand-dust dream
as arms forgotten by time reach out to touch my young face
paint-stained with colors of sincerity and gratitude
laughing, crying, burning, drowning, living, knowing,
melting into shaking fingertips and crackling firefly smiles.

i missed you so much.

a new canvas, a new verse, a removal of old masks and modes
promises to ignite the heavens through a glorious collapse
of fire and flight and dripping-hope feathers like swords
dividing frozen chains of space in velvet promise
deep calls to deep, echoing and true in this red cathedral
sanctified in waves of tears and waterfalls of salted blood
the night sky becomes a song played on oceanic heartstrings
illuminating blessed days with the spark of undying hope.

je t'aime, je t'aime, je t'aime.


if you were waiting for a sign,
if you were waiting for a miracle,
if you were waiting for the answer to your prayers,
this is it.
this is here, now, tonight, forever
eternity sanctified in every moment
this is the song of love incarnate
this is us.


and so i confess from within a flood of incandescent joy
that when compared to the sound of our hearts beating as one,
nothing else matters.

i cannot stay.
come home to me in your dreams.
i love you.


nothing else matters at all.