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prismaticbleedA day on the road.
Grocery shopping. Tried "Store 32"; so much consumerist hell nonsense. "NEW AGE DRINKS" aisle. Genesis riding in cart as usual, "channeled" my anger; "I'm pissed." "No wonder you get along with Laurie"; both strong sense of justice and no patience for bull. Laurie showed up in headspace and walked us through to get out.
Next "E.N." vegan food store to get hemp flakes, like we used to, BUT that store is a TRAUMA BOMB. Laurie had to guide me every step of the way because I kept having blackout flashbacks and was a panicked mess. We got out safely, thank you God, with the notable exception of a BIG dissociative slip at the scented oil bottle aisle, which resulted in us spilling methyl salicylate over our skirt and having a genuine panic attack but we managed to squeeze it out with tissues in the car.
Bought hemp flakes, hemp seeds, Celebi's favorite Chimes candy of course.
Therapy.
Girl really likes warm neutrals! Whole aesthetic was yellow & ochre & clay. So unusual; really sweet to see though. I'll have to wear blues & teals when I go in, to complement it.
Wegmans.
Butterscotch candy for Genesis
Gluten-free aisle teamwork!
Probiotic drinks.
THEY ALREADY HAVE THE CINNAMON PINE CONES OUT.
Ate hemp food in the car for late breakfast. Gotta get that protein!
Home.
Grandma likes our pink lemonade electrolyte powder! ♡ Oh thank God. She doesn't like Pedialyte or Gatorade but she keeps getting dehydrated, so finally we have a fix.
Big default salad for dinner, but added in a red bell pepper to match the family dinner. Tried a little piece of potato & tomato, too, to be brave.
Grandma laughs every time Phlegmoni is on TV too, now, because she knows how much he cheers me up. ❤ God bless. He deserves the appreciation, poor dude, always getting zapped by ophthalmologists.
⭐NEW EATING DISORDER BATTLE PLAN=
Stop thinking about self. Forget about health aesthetic or medical obligation or sympathetic mimicry. ONLY ASK= HOW CAN I HONOR GOD IN EATING??
Because GOD IS DISHONORED by packaged, invented, novelty junk "foods." They are PERVERSIONS of His Creation, a Luciferean scoff of "I can do better than God!" AND a gross corruption of the digestive function in general. The devil wants everything to be about "fun and pleasure" while forever disguising the fact that those two things, apart from God, ALWAYS turn into graveyard rot.
Grocery shopping. Tried "Store 32"; so much consumerist hell nonsense. "NEW AGE DRINKS" aisle. Genesis riding in cart as usual, "channeled" my anger; "I'm pissed." "No wonder you get along with Laurie"; both strong sense of justice and no patience for bull. Laurie showed up in headspace and walked us through to get out.
Next "E.N." vegan food store to get hemp flakes, like we used to, BUT that store is a TRAUMA BOMB. Laurie had to guide me every step of the way because I kept having blackout flashbacks and was a panicked mess. We got out safely, thank you God, with the notable exception of a BIG dissociative slip at the scented oil bottle aisle, which resulted in us spilling methyl salicylate over our skirt and having a genuine panic attack but we managed to squeeze it out with tissues in the car.
Bought hemp flakes, hemp seeds, Celebi's favorite Chimes candy of course.
Therapy.
Girl really likes warm neutrals! Whole aesthetic was yellow & ochre & clay. So unusual; really sweet to see though. I'll have to wear blues & teals when I go in, to complement it.
Wegmans.
Butterscotch candy for Genesis
Gluten-free aisle teamwork!
Probiotic drinks.
THEY ALREADY HAVE THE CINNAMON PINE CONES OUT.
Ate hemp food in the car for late breakfast. Gotta get that protein!
Home.
Grandma likes our pink lemonade electrolyte powder! ♡ Oh thank God. She doesn't like Pedialyte or Gatorade but she keeps getting dehydrated, so finally we have a fix.
Big default salad for dinner, but added in a red bell pepper to match the family dinner. Tried a little piece of potato & tomato, too, to be brave.
Grandma laughs every time Phlegmoni is on TV too, now, because she knows how much he cheers me up. ❤ God bless. He deserves the appreciation, poor dude, always getting zapped by ophthalmologists.
⭐NEW EATING DISORDER BATTLE PLAN=
Stop thinking about self. Forget about health aesthetic or medical obligation or sympathetic mimicry. ONLY ASK= HOW CAN I HONOR GOD IN EATING??
Because GOD IS DISHONORED by packaged, invented, novelty junk "foods." They are PERVERSIONS of His Creation, a Luciferean scoff of "I can do better than God!" AND a gross corruption of the digestive function in general. The devil wants everything to be about "fun and pleasure" while forever disguising the fact that those two things, apart from God, ALWAYS turn into graveyard rot.
