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trying to talk
Mar. 4th, 2019 11:34 pmSESSION PARTICIPANTS
LAURIE UBERICH 
JESS??Kid…
Laurie--!!
…We live in a secular world and it's shit. This is literally its own encapsulated hell. I want outta here.
How?
Easy. Redefine our roots. Something. Build on a different foundation, heh. What's that prayer you say every day now? The Psalm at 12 o' clock, I think.
I think it's None, actually. "If the Lord does not build the house for us, its builders labor in vain…"
Yeah, yeah that's the one! And you always think of me. "It is vain for you to rise before the dawn, and go late to your rest, eating the bread of toil… to those he loves, the Lord gives sleep." And then it talks about kids.
Yeah.
…Kid, girl, Jess, whoever you are.
All of those things. And Jewel, deep down at heart.
A new one, though. A new one. Pinkish, somehow. Not the original Klonoa-haired girl. She's too… manic. And I can feel the red rubbing you the wrong way with its brashness and brazenness. You're… pink. Soft. Gentle. But strong, too, somehow. Like a sunrise. "Here, look at this indomitable beauty from God." You wanna testify to that in your every heartbeat. You wanna shine like that. That's what you are. I can feel it.
That means a lot. I only want to glorify God, I'm sick of pride and selfishness and indulgence.
Kid, I know, that shit's exhausting and useless the way it is.
Qoheleth. "Vanity of vanities, all things are vanity!"
Didn't you say that struck you as a kid?
Don't you remember it? That feels like it has your roots in it somewhere. Purple and Violet stuff.
Is that color theory still legit in your new life?
As long as it glorifies God, and brings us all closer to Him, and helps us trueheartedly serve Him alone in our works, and in others, and the like. So, potentially, yes it can, and it should, because anything that doesn't is unreal and will be and should be destroyed.
Heck yes, I can agree with that.
By the way, you need to stop using profanity.
I know. Been trying for years. Gotta try real hard now, I daresay.
Same with overcoming this eating disorder.
Easier said than done?
Ironically, no. Faith makes all things heart-meltingly easy, even enthusiastically so. But without faith…
It's impossible.
Exactly. Hold on, gotta take a break and help grandma with her eyedrops.
Kid, actually, put this on hold for now. It's 7:30 and you gotta go to bed for 8 and we've got to try harder than ever tomorrow, to heal, and grow, and love. And we've gotta talk about this Broken Arrows stuff once we read more of the old entries. Are we gonna restore the archives?
I have no idea. Should we?
Dunno, kid. Pray about it.
Will do.
Have a good night, Jess. We love you. I love you. Let us help you serve God in the way you need to. God knows we need to, too.
I love you all too, sincerely, and I am truly deeply thankful that God brought us all together in life, whatever and however we are. I love you too, Laurie. Good night.
Good night, kid. See you tomorrow.
