the spectrum heart cathedral system

all right. let's focus on the GOOD things.
writing about the bad stuff isn't going to fix it, not tonight. it's all cycles of self-loathing and addiction that could be solved in an instant if the right people woke up in the body in the morning. we'll just have to take more action to ensure that.
we're good people. we are. the ones who aren't are either lost, or unreal. this is 100% healable. we'll continue on that path.


nevertheless, good things.

- found this webcomic, love the art style, only about 15 pages in but the story has me hooked. hooray new webcomics
- in church the pianist played a very pretty freestyle chord which i remember and am now going to use
- some woman in a bright teal jacket approached us after church and, beaming, said "i love your hair!" which, incidentally, is perpetually anime-ish fluff of some sort. made my evening.
- mum wanted a spotify account so we made her one and that's cool.
- almost 15 years later, finally got my own copy of a wind in the door. it's 1st edition. it's aqua. i'm very happy.
- the "priest" guy in headspace talked to us!! we think his name is aconitum; he's really resonating with it. but he's SOLID after many many months of trying to find him, he creeps about in the shadows of the underground chapels, but here he is now.
- found cannon's old blades, brand new. showed them to razor. she was so happy she cried.
- last night we told ashen that atonement "restores (the body's) virginity" and she grasped onto this with the desperate gratitude of a starving child and begged me to never ever let us lose it again. she invented a sort of "summoning mantra" for me that taps into my REAL self and role, overriding plague and ice, and will call me immediately to the aid of anyone who uses it. she's making one for laurie too.
- forgot to tell you, we got this little guy at the local craft store last week. i love him. he's joined the mascot group in our room.
- last night we dreamt that we were steven universe and e was connie and we spent the whole time running around this empty sunny abandoned mall that i swear i've dreamed about before. it was so so so nice.
- i uh am wondering if maybe javier's gonna become #8 soon because geez. he's the sweetest thing. i do wonder.
- the woods outside are turning the most gorgeous yellow color. josephina is euphoric. and the sassafrass is that beautiful cerise hue as always, i need to show eros. i will take photos for you.
- got the NICEST message from someone we just followed on tumblr. aaa it's so nice. it made my year. thank you love.


and that's it!
good night beloveds.