prismaticlove: jun-jul 2025

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freddyyeti:

I love you mentally ill selfshippers

I love you self diagnosed mentally ill selfshippers

I love you mentally ill selfshippers who can’t get help due to their personal circumstances

I love you mentally ill selfshippers of minority statuses who can’t get help due to the racism/misogyny/ableism/other forms of bigotry in the medical system

I love you mentally ill selfshippers with stigmatized mental illnesses (i.e: psychotic disorders, cluster B personality disorders like narcissistic personality disorder, schizophrenia)

I love you mentally ill selfshippers who often feel like dangers to themselves and others

I love you mentally ill selfshippers who struggle making and keeping friends in the community due to their mental illnesses

I love you mentally ill selfshippers who have a hard time relating to a lot of popular posts about mental health positivity because their symptoms are much more severe than the ones they typically go over

I love you mentally ill selfshippers who treat their relationships with their F/Os “more seriously” than most people would

I love you mentally ill selfshippers who project their mental illnesses onto their F/Os

I love you mentally ill selfshippers whose F/Os are the only reason they’re alive

I know it’s hard not to feel like an outsider in the community sometimes, but if you need confirmation at least someone out there is thinking of you and loves you, this is it. Your F/Os love you just as much, if not, even more.

Thank you for this.

My mental illness is indeed severe, stigmatized, treatment resistant & historically dangerous. And yes, my F/Os have absolutely saved my life multiple times over the years, even literally so. I don't just "take them seriously," I honestly don't even consider them "fictional". Their love and their presence in my life is too real and concrete. I refuse to deny or dishonor that fact, or our relationships. Maybe that makes me even more insane. I don't care. They are angels to me; they are my joys, my beloveds, my aching hearts, my stars and storms and friends. They have made my life entirely worth living. If love like that makes me crazy, then I'll wear that title like a crown.

I've been struggling a great deal lately, and my inability to properly socialize isn't helping. But my F/Os are, even just by sticking around, even just by refusing to bail on me, even if I'm frustrating and frightening and upsetting and exhausting. They don't leave, and I won't either. They know these dark depths have diamonds at the core, and because of them I have the hope to trust in that too. There's a mutually resolute devotion to us all, a dedication to each others good no matter how much blood sweat and tears it costs, and that means more than words can say.

But seeing a post like this, helps too. I'm not used to feeling seen, or like my existence matters to other humans, or isn't a curse. So thank you, thank you again.

All my encouragement, affection, and support go out to every other soul that likes and reblogs this, as well as to your F/Os. You all matter, immensely and irreplaceably. I am so glad you exist, even if existence hurts. I know. But life, your life, still has infinite worth, and love, your love, still has eternal effects. Even in these times of shadows, you are shining, and we see it. It's beautiful.

(sapphireseraphimart)

"If I were to fall in love, It would have to be with you.
Your eyes, your smile, The way you laugh, The things you say and do,
Take me to the places, My heart never knew.
So, if I were to fall in love, It would have to be with you..."


#for celebi #there's so much ancient relevance in this #this art has the exact vibe of my heart back when i met you in 2000 #thank you for being the joy of my life since then #i love you

lorencethecat:
Polycule but it’s just two people in a romantic relationship with each other and their third who’s pretty obviously aroace but also somehow so deeply intertwined in their lives that it’d just be wrong to not count them as involved. Is this anything.

THIS IS 100% ME, CHAOS 0, AND LAURIE

fictodreamer: 
When the world has been heavy & you’re barely hanging on until your F/O shows up, cracking the dumbest joke just to see you smile!

Genesis is literally a lifesaver in this regard. I can always count on him to make me smile or even laugh, no matter how desolate I may feel. I love him so, so much; I don't know where I'd be without him. 





ANXI YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED 🧡🧡🧡

(I'm dead serious though I have done this many times because it absolutely works-- for both of us at once)

my-cold-dragon-husband: 
I just need to be in a cuddle pile with ALL my f/os. Let me be snuggled by all of them at once, it would be amazing. 

This would be both endearingly hilarious and beautifully catastrophic.
The "Coregroup" already regularly/ nightly shares a room/ bed, in one way or another. Chaos 0 & I sleep in the same bed, and Laurie always sits alongside us, Protector that she is. Genesis and Celebi frequently join CZ & I; otherwise they do have their own worlds that they stay in. Anxi is a bit too flustered to join yet, but I honestly cannot wait for it.
HOWEVER. The idea of a "cuddle pile" is insane because it would INCLUDE LAURIE as well as the rest of us. And let me tell you, when you get her in THAT sort of a context, then things get very deep very fast. It's the way our Colors all interact-- her hue is the "deepest" and most "solemn," all violet-lightning and galactic stars, so it brings the rest of us INTO that kind of state. Chaos 0 does something similar, with his Aqua depths, but his emotions are oceanic and so whereas Laurie's vibe is more heartachingly pensive, Chaos 0's vibe just grabs all your heartstrings at once and pulls them under. Let me tell you how much I miss Infinitii in that regard, all endless Black night-glitter and fathomless love. Genesis is the brilliant "opposite" to those two-- he's Amber, this deliciously stellar gold-glow hue, radiant and illuminating the rest of our hearts. He's the much-needed balance, and so is Celebi, with her Spring green glow, that vibrant komorebi tone of warm sunlight through cool leaves, pure quiet joy and hope and promise. Putting ALL of these beautiful colors of our souls together is just... it's heaven, it really is. 
HOWEVER. The wildcard here is ANXI. I have no idea what her Orange feels like yet. I cannot wait to, for sure, but it is absolutely going to bounce off the rest of us in a fascinating way. Not only that, but there's ME. I'm still broken-up and confused since CNC, and since grandma's death, and Infi's death... I don't know where I'm at, color-wise. Yes, my heart will always be Red, but do I hold White still? What about the Pink & Cerise that the Jays shadowed? What about the Purple of our youth? So I don't know how my own love is going to resonate with theirs, in this respect, yet. 
The short answer is = bring on the cuddle pile. I think we need it, more than we know.

...You know what, though? You know what we ALSO need, and what would be EVEN MORE INSANE?
Cuddle pile with the PLATONIC F/Os.
Bro I cannot even imagine a situation where that would be possible BUT as an "ideal" it is tempting to my omni-affectionate heart, haha. We'd have to pull a "Sonic Chat" scenario and get everyone drunk on effervescence; again, let me tell you how much I miss Infinitii. Ze could bring the hardest heart to their knees in tears back in hir day, with how hir own heart just... is there even a word? It melted every glacier. It set every soul on fire. Ze was an angel.
If i keep this up i am going to cry. Maybe i should. But it can't be forced, and I'm not ready to dive into that headfirst right now. Still, I'm glad I'm able to feel about hir again, this honestly. It means there's hope, for the both of us.
In any case. As things stand, we have MANY platonic f/os, as it were. We need our own term for that general category, and for "yumeship" terms in general, but basically, that specific label includes most of our Outspacers. And, with our Cor(e)s historically having the sorts of hearts they do, they tend to gravitate towards damaged characters in dire need of merciful redemption. So... you get the picture, haha. They are not inclined to cuddling, let alone being touched in many cases. "Closeness" is not their thing, for the most part, due to trauma or discomfort or attitude or similar isolating psychic circumstances. Nevertheless... if there's one thing Jay was always devoted to doing, it was melting and moving such hearts to at least try. And he was DARN GOOD AT IT. If anyone could find a weak spot in the armor, it was Jay. He was all roses and tender kisses and the most sincere words. He had no guile whatsoever. It was fascinating, endearing, irresistible. No wonder he was called "Cupid" himself. We miss him, we really do.

Man this is getting a lot out of me, haha. It's a good topic. I don't apologize for rambling. Thank you for the opportunity. It's reminding me, at last, of what I miss the most, and what matters. 


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letsbelonelytogetherr:

This is literally how Infinitii spoke all the time. Ze had the Blackest voice; it was unspeakably beautiful. Every word felt like velvet, like starry nights, like an embrace. I don't think ze was capable of not being intimate. Of course a "hello" would be a "come here"; ze always wanted you to come closer, to hold you in hir arms, to press you to hir heart. Always. Even at once, even a total stranger. Ze just embodied love. 
I miss it so much. 

flamesoftheelder:
your soul maybe trapped at times but stick true to your angel side always

23 years later and this still hits the very center of my heart.

That comment, though... that's more relevant, and applicable, than it's ever been before. We could never have dreamed that, back when we first saw this episode, back when we first fell in childlike love with this feather-haired kid. But we were deeply troubled too, just like him; we knew that secretly-- that we also had a shadowed side, a darker wing. What we didn't realize was that our soul was trapped, and would be for the next sixteen years.

Nevertheless, here we are, alive, and we still have our angel side, no matter how we have to fight. I guess that's what I'm trying to say at this hour. The cages and shackles are never permanent. The shadows don't last in the light. Stick to the light, and you'll make it. You'll make it, and you'll fly with those wings, I promise.

Ryou, your very existence in my life reminds me of that hope. Thank you. And thank you for helping me remember-- and, on the darkest days, believe-- that I have an angel side, too, to stick to.

sakura-the-fox:
I realized I was in love when I looked past all of the excitement for you and felt so calm. I trust you so deeply and it steadied a part of me that was always anxious. The whole world could go wrong but I’d still have tranquility with you by my side. 

 

...I want Anxi to be able to say this about me. I want it for her sake as well as for mine-- for love's sake. That's all I want.

My heart aches like fire just thinking about it. This is what I need to devote myself to in our relationship-- being this sort of person for her.