A prayer for closeness

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Lord, sometimes it feels like the biggest obstacle between You and me-- the main thing preventing me from drawing near to You-- is exhaustion. 

This body and mind get so tired, Lord. Sometimes the very thought of all the physical & mental work I must do in order to worship and venerate You properly can drive me to tears. 

Lord, can You please give me Your strength, so I can soldier on towards You? I need Your divine Power to animate my very soul, or I will collapse. I know that Power is grounded in Love, and as such, it can conquer every opposition-- so please, increase Your Love in me! Don't let me shut it down or out! You know I can be so ashamed and afraid of tender emotions; I beg of You, CHANGE THAT. Please. 

My heart cannot be strong for You if it isn't soft. A heart of stone cannot cry or laugh or embrace You. 

Your Heart was soft enough to be pierced and bleed, and in that very awful vulnerability, it became the fountain of mercy itself. 
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