dec 27 2015

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dec 27


system frantically triyng to find a soolid frnoter I think.
gold/white overlay in church


later, w/ laurie=
"wait a second-- are you blasting silent night to drown out everything else?"
"yes"
"that's fantastically ironic"



brother condemning us for being a transman again
he believes all masculinity is toxic and that we're trying to poison him to death by bringing T into the hosue etc. etc.
it hurts, it brings up the suicidal feeling everyt ime he says it



not sure what to do today.





fought of hackers for three hellish hours this evening
which ticks me off because they don’t even have STRENGTH
they have literally NO LEVERAGE
nothng but brute force.
damn it.
I don’t even think they can convince the lost ones anymore. there's been too much growth, too much awareness, too much learning, too much conversation.
we need to drag a few lost ones into xangas and see if they can stick around.


rereading lots of our tumblr archives. it's helping with motivation and re-tuning a lot.