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sometimes we really wonder if full integration is an option.

daily life is hell, at least for the ones who live it
you dont hear about it here we dont talk about it

the autopilot and the non-system alters who ignore our condition don't care. they're too empty, the latter just want to die, that's bad enough

but the upstairs people live in their happy little joyland they don't have to deal with the body like we do they don't know

they dont know what its like to HAVE to front
we cant help it we're TIED TO IT
and its terrifying to have this life to live that we dont even know about

the body is 23!!! most of us arent even evidenced a year old!!!
we dontknow what to do its too painful to wake up for most of us especially the little ones and the broken ones

and now were all wondering, what if we all died

someone tried integration in the past, when the upstairs peple were the only ones, two of them died. they came back later though
but what if we all died what would happen
would the hurting stop? who would be left would the body die?

we dont want to do this anymore



{downstairs system}

 

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@ 10:52 pm

 

SOMEONE JUST TRIED TO DRINK ALCOHOL

NO

YOU DO NOT FREAKING DRINK ALCOHOL THAT IS OFF LIMITS!!!!!

YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE EVERYONE SICK YOU ABSOLUTE IDIOT

SPIT IT OUT
THROW IT UP
GET IT OUT OF THE SYSTEM
YOURE GOING TO POISON US!!!

OH NO NO NO

EMMETT TRIED TO GET IT OUT BUT THERE WASNT ENOUGH TO GET OUT SAFELY
YOU HEARTLESS JERK
YOU KNEW THAT WOULD HAPPEN
TRYING TO CHUG THAT DOWN LIKE IT WASNT A PROBLEM
YOU WITCH
DONT YOU REALIZE HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS

KNIFE IS SO ANGRY
WHO ARE YOU
WHY THE HECK DO YOU KEEP WANTING TO DRINK
NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO DRINK
ESPECIALLY NOT YOU

I WILL THROW OUT EVERY LAST DROP OF ALCOHOL IN THIS HOUSE
I DONT CARE WHOSE IT IS
I DONT CARE HOW MUCH MONEY IT COST
IF YOU ARE GOING TO KEEP DRINKING IT I WILL

I HATE YOU
I AM SICK OF PEOPLE ACTING LIKE WE DONT EXIST
LIKE WE DONT MATTER AND WE DONT GET SICK
YOU AND THAT STUPID CHOCOLATE GIRL
I HATE YOU

GET THE HECK OUT OF OUR LIVES
STOP RUINING EVERYTHING

GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!