060913

[prismaticbleed]

 

So my friend out West just informed me that Xenophon is still in their headspace, being taken care of by two of their system members.
I must admit I was worried sick about her, as everyone but her returned today in one way or another, and I didn't hear anything about her whereabouts or well-being, even from CZ. But apparently she's doing okay, which is a huge relief.
I just feel terrible that I can't bring her home yet. Upper headspace is still a shambles and Central is temporarily inaccessible, and I would hate to make her face that upon returning.
I suppose most of the guilt comes from my still not being convinced I'm a good enough parent for her. I'm tired of my absences in peoples lives having such repercussions. I'm tired of not being there.

Thankfully, this whole disaster might be dealt with within the next 24 hours, as Laurie is healing from the energy burnout rather quickly. She's already told me that we should outright try to "break in" to Central tomorrow morning, before things get any worse. I'm not too enthused at the thought of what we might endure in the process, but I can't let this lockout situation continue any longer either, as the Spectrum is suffering terribly (Leon's gone blind, Wally is practically catatonic, you get the picture).

24 hours is a very long time upstairs...God only knows what I'll have to say by Monday, in light of past experiences like this.
Wish us luck.

-J