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Things that happened today:

- An absolutely beautiful Xanga session. It didn't end until almost 5AM but it was worth every second.
- This nasty chest cold had an awesome side effect, and that is filling out my lower vocal range! I think that fact also succeeded in kicking my vocal dysphoria permanently out the door, too (as I've been working on letting go of it lately).
- Realized that since Q & Mel have stopped talking to me, my mind has happily decided that they now fit the 'distant people I care about' list, instead of 'people I know.' So the detachment has hit the brightest point, at last.
- We got a new family car, finally! She said her name was Bethany (I asked) and she's a snowy white Suzuki. She handles like a dream.
- One of the local libraries had Issue #22 of Bleach, yess!! Finally I get to meet Ulquiorra (who I almost forgot existed until about three days ago)!
- Stopped at the big local mall to admire their huge Christmas decorations, which I haven't done in years.
- Had a deeply philosophical discussion with Genesis on the way home.
- Choir practice and violin practice this evening, with one awesome surprise-- I'm now a cantor for our parish!
- Celebrated this by singing to Chaos for a while when I got home, including rifle recoil of course. I haven't done that in ages and it was really lovely.
- It started snowing huge fluffy flakes around 8PM so of course I went outside and stood in it for 10 minutes. (Plus I've gotta have my Sandman hair, remember?)
- And my 9th anniversary is in TWO DAYS, my heart feels like a supernova, it's going to be amazing.


The world isn't ending tomorrow... instead, it feels like it's almost beginning anew, somehow.
I'll be up at 6AM to ring in the new age, mark my words. Gonna be gorgeous, kids.

Seriously... I've been feeling such lovely energy lately. It's impossible to stop smiling anymore. Everywhere I look, I see wonder and light. It's like I told Genesis today, it all goes back to what I learned on July 7th. At the heart of everything, everything, there's the same stuff. No matter what, by virtue of existing, every single atom resonates with the same universal center. Everything created is love manifested. We're the ones who judge things. When you stop judging, and simply look with open eyes and an open heart... how can you not love everything?
That's what I hope all of us remember, tomorrow. That's what I hope we all begin to actively live, in every moment, from this moment on.
Be humble. Trust that everything is as it needs to be. Be grateful for everything.
Choose to do all of that, if you will. In every moment, consciously choose to love, consciously choose to hold its light within you. I think that's the most important thing right now.
That's the road we're all walking down together, into the future.


Love and light to all of you, always.
We are the ones we have been waiting for.

❤