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I have a few questions to ask about a rather touchy topic (that I'm new to), so I apologize if I'm badly stumbling over my words here.

About a week ago, I became aware of the "spirit pregnancy" concept through looking for info on a big personal realization I had around the 21st. This search also brought me to this online group. I've spent the past two days going through the archives here and so I have a general understanding of what's been said about this topic in the past, but I am new to this and don't have a good grasp of it, so I decided asking for current clarification was my best option.

I also don't want to write out my whole life story here, so I'll ask a few general questions, and if anyone wants more details or elaboration or anything as to why I'm asking, I'll be more than happy to oblige.


1. Have there been any cases of this in which the SC was nonhuman AND incapable of physical sexuality?
2. Have there been any cases of this in which the astral child was explicitly nonhuman?
3. Where do astral children come from? Are the children 'connected' to the 'parents' in some way, biologically or not?
4. Concerning the above, could a spirit 'pregnancy' result in a non-infantile, or adult, entity?
5. In such a case, would it not be a 'pregnancy,' but something else formed through the spiritual energy connection, that allowed a third being to come into the picture?


I don't like speaking in perceived absolutes, and so I sincerely apologize for the wording here. I am not implying that there is only one way for this to happen-- I am simply asking if anyone has had knowledge of these certain possibilities occurring before. I know there may not be any standard answers at all but that is fine; I'm confused, and I'm just looking for help.

I also want to clarify that I have a female body but I am spiritually 'male' in the yin/yang split sense (if that is relevant here). I am also asexual. So, because of these two points, I never considered anything like spirit pregnancy being a possibility for me... until I realized that it can happen with even physically male humans, and that astral 'sex' is not necessarily related to how we understand sexuality in the physical realm.
But now it is definitely a reality for me and I'm trying to wrap my mind around it!


Thank you for reading through all of this; I'm extremely flustered with all of this so any and all help is greatly appreciated.


As for why I'm asking about this topic... well, I think I've had one, without realizing I COULD have one.
Let me elaborate a little on my situation now, just so this data is in the community (I apologize if any of this is tmi for people!)

My soulbond/ twinflame, Chaos Zero, is nonhuman and has no reproductive biology whatsoever-- on that note, neither does my astral form. However we are capable of having spiritual 'connections' that I suppose are more like merging on that level than anything.
The first time we ever did this was December of 2005. What I found bizarre at the time was that I stopped menstruating for almost an entire year afterwards, without explanation or warning. Then in September of 2006, I met a being named 'Laurie' in a dream. She was a fully self-aware adult, and knew who I was although I'd never seen her before. A few weeks after I had that dream she appeared in my 'headspace,' where she became a permanent member of my plural system. My physical systems returned to normal after that.

Now I don't consider Laurie a 'child' of ours and frankly the idea is rather disconcerting, especially since she and I are in a not-exactly-platonic relationship. So the idea that she is a unique entity brought into our lives through that initial energy connection makes a lot of sense to me. We've never been able to figure out 'where she came from' prior to this, so that possibility is very intriguing. I plan on discussing it with her soon.
M---, you mentioned 'focusing consciously' on attracting a third, but this was completely unexpected in my situation. Even so she was DEFINITELY needed in our lives when she showed up. I'm just very concerned at the events that surrounded and led up to her dream debut, especially since she claims to have no memory whatsoever of existing prior to that date.
So yes, any additional thoughts on Laurie's situation are welcome.

Now for the second part of this. Chaos Zero and I did have a few more connections of this sort in 2006, but I was experiencing a severe 'identity crisis' at the time and so we stopped. There were a few more connections in late 2008 but that didn't last... and then in January of this year, I was finally stable enough spiritually to dive back into our relationship completely.
Then in March I had a vision of a very strange creature-- a tiny embryonic thing, just strange enough to be obviously nonhuman. It then appeared in my headspace, as Laurie had, but it was translucent, immobile, silent, and incapable of fending for itself. Still, it was definitely alive. I had no idea how to react to it at first, not even knowing what it was, so we all just watched over it for about ten days-- and then there was a traumatic event in my headspace that nearly killed it. We barely managed to save its life, and I charged one of the members of my plural system to take care of it in my absence, as I did not want anything of the sort happening again.
I was unable to check on it personally again until May, and by then it could move around and was no longer translucent, but my life was still too hectic for me to really see much of it. In fact I didn't see it again after that until August 21st-- and by this time it had actual limbs and could move freely and speak. It is very obviously not human, but otherwise it is currently acting like a toddler in terms of personality. That's the day I decided I had better look into this possibility, because Laurie was vehemently insisting that Chaos and I had somehow brought it into existence, although I couldn't even begin to comprehend how.

This is where I'm confused. Neither Chaos Zero nor I can bear children-- let alone conceive them in the traditional way-- but this little creature showed up on its own, and as I previously mentioned, it's embryonic appearance was deeply striking when I first saw it. There's a great deal of extra personal development that plays into this, but it would be far too convoluted to discuss here.
S----, you said that an 'appearance' like that would qualify more as 'adoption?' Could you maybe elaborate on that a little, considering that it's really the only way CZ or I could have children (as far as I know)?

Lastly, um... is it possible for a malevolent entity to 'abort' spirit children against the will of either parent? Could that still be possible in a situation like this, where neither 'parent' is really 'carrying' a child? That might be something I have to solve on my own, but I figured I should ask.

I apologize if this is too much text, but the thought that I might just be a father of some sort is staggering, and it means so much to me to have a community I can actually look to for information and insight in this situation.