Troubles: 0... Optimism: Over freakin' 9000!

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I don't know, today has just been... amazing. Freaking amazing.

Why?

I don't know! It just has. Which is nice.


Oh, one reason why I'm even being a total crazyhead and posting this.
Psyche and Eclipse, wahoo! They're both so awesome. I love 'em.
Psyche is such a lovable spaz, honest. He's so freaking muscular but he's such a sweetheart! I swear, he loves everybody and isn't afraid to show it. Especially not to Eclipse. *snerk* Those two are so funny. Poor Eclipse, though. He's so ridiculously thin, Psyche is going to break his back with those death-hugs if he's not careful!
Hm... I want to rant about Eclipse-man but I think I'll save that for his bio when I post him. He's almost done, honest. It's funny... I know exactly what colors he is, every single one, and I always have, which I'll admit is very shocking and very nice. Everyone else is so blurry!
Hm. Maybe Eclipse and I have some funky sort of connection, I don't know. If I start going blind, THEN I'll worry!

Guilt trips? Yes please. Give me a bunch of 'em, and do you think you could add a side of disconnected frustration while you're at it? Thanks. What's the bill, you say? Some very painful Skype conversations? Eh, I've got enough to spare. Here's one at 7PM!

... Oh, it's not working. I just can't be in a bad mood today.

My mind... JUMPS. A lot. It's frantic! It's spectacularly freakish and frightening, oh yes it is.
I'm sure, right now, in the midst of my terribly amusing euphoria for which there are many reasons and no real reason at the same time, right now, there is some hideous monster with a mouth full of blood and a skeleton for a body hiding waaay back in the dark corners of my mind where I can just barely see it, all hunched over and staring at me with bulletholes for eyes. It's there, I know. Somewhere.
But right now I'm up here, in this bright and lovely room of my head, all white with almost no furniture and a wall full of windows looking out at the rainy world outside, yes I am! Up here with Chaos and Devonal and Venomabat (why is he always here? Maybe its his virtue) and Psyche who is being a total nutbar and glomping Eclipse to death and it's fantastic up here. All happy and nice.
But that thing is glaring at me and licking its glass teeth and what the heck am I supposed to do about that, huh?
Geez.

Ah well I won't worry about him right now. I'll tell Laurie to keep an eye on him, and then I should be okay for now.

CONCENTRATE, DARN IT!

You know, usually I LIKE when my mind is a total freaking pinball and moves so freaking fast from point to point that I can't see it until it falls into a hole and I have to put in another quarter to keep going.
Do- you- think- you- can- WAIT- until- I- hang- up? Stay in the blasted box, you spaz, I didn't pull the trigger yet.

Freaking weirdo! Gosh. What a head.

And yet I am in SUCH a good mood. Honestly, usually it takes about four entries for me to use CapsLock this often, and you know how long my entries get, oh yes you do.

...

I swear if you don't PAY ATTENTION--

Oh no no no.
Laurie, do you want to talk? All right, wait until I hang up and then we'll go settle this on Xanga. Right now, I have a VERY important Skype conversation going, and you're screwing up my concentration so badly that nothing is registering. Not even the words that I'm typing, and that's pretty bad!
What? Well, get the heck over there and keep an eye on him. Yes, yes you can use the axe if you want. No, not on me. Because I haven't done anything. Really? What? Oh, fine. Just wait until I hang up. Hey hey hey hey, watch out he's moving! Geez, Laur! There you go. I wasn't stopping you from using it before. Yeah, but it's all right when you're attacking bloody pain-demons. Because your dialogue only shows up in Xanga entries. That was an accident, Laurie. I can't. Because I'm on Skype and that'll take up all my concentration. Yes. No it's not. Look, can you save this for later? Be patient. Thank you.

...Don't mind that, headvoices just acting up again. It's okay.


You know, euphoria is just like sugar. No, wait. I did have sugar today. A tiny tiny bit, because I was being randomly stressed and not working at the moment, and GEEZ the darn stuff is eating my mind like acid! What the freaking fish!

Selph, *points* keep me away from the sugar. Yes I know you're trying. I know I need to listen. Sorry, listen more. Yep. Oh, sure! Just watch out for Laurie, though. All right, I'll keep a spot open for you! I will, hon.

Geeeeez everyone wants a piece of my head today. I am so lucky Chaos hasn't tried yet, or I would-- don't you give me those eyes, darling. I'm on Skype.
See, at least he's considerate! Oh, sure, hon. Don't blow up at her, though. All right.

...

I need to stop typing before the whole freaking Dream World starts lining up to talk to me! Gosh!
The power of suggestion can be a very bad thing.
I think my mind may be a little bit more unhinged than I thought it was.

Yes it is. Dang that is such a weird feeling. Scary, too.
Hm.

But it's a good day, darn it.
See you kids later! Enjoy your evening!


-s. cannon