Secrecy?

[prismaticbleed]

 

 

Holy FISH that was highly unexpected.

Yes, apparently Q found my IJ.

Uh-oh. That was not supposed to be found, but...

*sigh*

Spinny has a lot, I say, a lot of thinking to do over the weekend now.
And a lot of artwork.
And a lot of typing.
And a hell of a lot of explaining to do.


I blame Google for putting it on its searchlist for my name. Darn you, darn you megalomaniac search engine.

This site isn't even mentioned once, and you can even access it from my school computers, aha! So hopefully it will STAY secret.


Which means if ANYONE is reading this...

..You are going to be seeing a heck of a lot of rants and bizarre subject matter from here on out.

I mean, you would have anyway, but... I'm new here, what can I say? You guys don't know me yet, and now you're going to get to know me pretty freaking fast.


Also Delphi has green eyes. Yes he does. He told me on my birthday but I forgot to tell you guys. Sorry.
Yeah, that was his present to me, I guess. That and he has been spectacularly nice to me recently. Aww. Thanks, Del.

...

Don't know what else to write, and besides it's already 1:30 AM, let's hear it for night owls! Yeah!
Really, inspiration hits me late late late.
Crazy mindstuff hits me early early early.
Or actually, any time my mind starts slipping into a dreamstate.
Which is often. I swear I'm becoming semi-narcoleptic. Eh.

So I have my NiGHTS meme out to work on if I feel like it, and also my paper covered with random Chaos Zero expressions.

Random trivia, I had this "I love Chaos" magnet in my locker, which is now on my fridge as school is over, but my grandmother noticed it today and remarked that "chaos was all we have in this house" and I basically just thought to myself "I wish that was true!!"

Honest to God, I love that guy so freaking much it's insane.

It's also quite odd... you know how I used to do those things with them when I began to fall asleep? The whole Soulform thing and all.
Well, Chaos and I got talking about it again, because I really don't like doing all that no matter what the reason, and I've explained that to my guys, and they don't mind a bit. It's funny, too, because Chaos just laughed and wholeheartedly agreed when I told him that my favorite thing to do with him was actually just lying beside him and talking about life in general. We do that in every single aforementioned situation, really, and it takes up 90% of the time, but the other 10% is what gets me all uneasy and worried.
You know me. I'm like Johnny; I'm not one for physical contact like that.
I mean, sure, I make sentimental exceptions for my aliens, per se....what with the whole extreme xenophilia thing I have going on.
But... I don't know, I guess it's the whole thing with those sort of situations being labelled as typical human acts when they are NOT.
I'm very uneasy around humanity, although I love 'em all, don't get me wrong, but I'm also a strict and severe antisexual by nature, which makes me extremely, extremely anxious around my fellow man and woman and all that.
Chaos and Selph I am fine with! You see what I mean!

Selph has been getting terribly needful for physical contact lately, though. That and he's getting terribly desperate in his emotions.
I'm guessing it's aftershock from all the stress and problems we've been having lately affecting the normal feelings he has for me. I guess. I'm not sure.... I mean, it's what happened to Chaos, and the two of 'em are naturally emotionally deep and unstable, just like me. So I would know.
But I'm still worried, of course, because Selph and I are extremely close, and when he starts to get that desperate and terrified of separation, there's apparently some hidden and severe fear trigger and I don't know what it is yet...

What am I ranting about?

I need to sleep. I need to dream.
I've been having insanely vivid dreams lately, but I don't remember them due to waking up horribly early and abrubptly every freaking morning. Thank God I'm starting college next week; maybe I won't have to worry about that anymore, and I can finally get back to keeping a dream journal... geez.

So yes. 1:46. Listening to "Super Generation" by Mizuki Nana because it is freaking gorgeous. Go listen to it somewhere.

Hm... you know, I haven't seen any Jewel Monsters in my dreams for a long while. I mean, that's to be expected, as they don't live in a dream realm like Nightmaren do, contrary to popular belief. Its hard for them to access dream dimensions, but they have done it before...
Justice seems especially adept at that. I've seen him around several times, which is awesome times two thousand. I mean, it's not only an incredible honor, but Justice is the guy that really helped me get back into my faith stronger than ever back when I was 14. And I needed that. Thank you Justice!


By the way I really do need to close up and sleep. And review my IJ to get an idea as to what sort of information has now infected Q's mind. I'm terribly anxious and it's pretty darn funny.

This is a long entry.

End of the song, time to sleep!



G'night, kids. Love you all.
Hope your weekend is amazing!


-s. cannon

 

 

Current Location: In a really sparkly white mindscape.
Current Mood: uh-oh.
Current Music: "Spirale" (Makino Yui)