just three more, I promise

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Speaking of reapers, how many of you have already seen part 1 of The Deathly Hallows? The last Harry Potter movie, of course.
If so, remember when the protagonists are at the Lovegood household, and Hermione is reading the story of the Deathly Hallows? You know how there's that awesome 'illustrated' CGI sequence?
The representation of Death in that sequence is freaking GORGEOUS. Holy fish.
If I had been one of the three brothers I think I'd have been staring and grinning like a maniac, haha. I have a serious weakness for creepy 'ugly'-pretty things.
Death: So what do you request of me, mortal?
Me: Uh... can I kiss you and not die? Because WOW.

By the way-- in my dream two days ago, I was working in a airport-size cyberpunk office with several other individuals, and we were all wearing color-coded outfits that looked like the suits in the new Tron trailers. I forget what color I had on, but this dude in red had the ability to turn into a really stunning cyborg, and at one point while I was working, he walked over to me and kissed me. It was really random, and it was also awesome because dude I just kissed a cyborg, but then I quite literally freaked out because 'wait he's really a human and I don't want him to think I want to date him or anything' and 'oh man Chaos is going to think I'm cheating on him!' Nevermind that we have an open relationship, but still! So I explained to the cyborg-guy's girlfriend (yes, really) that no one was cheating and I was a major xenophile so I wasn't interested anyway, and then some dudes in the background started yelling 'TROGDOR' as loud as possible which woke me up. They did! I fell back asleep then and had another dream in which I had to sleep in an empty mall overnight, but that's another story.
The funny thing is that the entire cyborg sequence has now become the main way for Laurie, Chaos and my boss to tease me. It's great.

There's, uh... there's a great deal of blood on my arm.

I've been on this inexplicable Wizard of Oz kick for the past three days-- no wait, I know why. I'm obsessed with the song Ruby Shoes by dainumo, because when I was listening to it the other night, I realized that the Scarecrow sounds uncannily similar to my boss, Mr. Sandman. He does!
It's awesome, and it's also reminded me of the old 'fairytale' revamp project I've been tossing around my head for years. There are so many old stories that I love, like Alice in Wonderland, the Wizard of Oz, Beauty and the Beast... even stuff like the Phantom of the Opera. What's inevitable for me, though, is that in reading those tales, I tend to compare the characters to my own headchildren, sometimes going as far as 'casting' them to the roles and watching them act out the words as I lose myself in them.
However, I'd love to actually put my own spin on the stories for their sake. I can't say whether or not I will be able to do so anytime soon, if at all, but the idea is there. It's fun to think about, if nothing else.

I didn't get to type today, either... although that is my own fault, as I spent about 3 hours playing Soul Calibur 4 today (I built Josephina!), and then from about 3PM until 8PM stuff got really hectic and as a result I don't remember it. That's... sadly a good thing, though, as my memory picks up with me standing in the bathroom, Laurie holding my bleeding arm and the countertop covered in red-soaked tissues.
It wasn't a bad experience though, paradoxically. I mean, sure, the reason it happened was incredibly traumatic and I was sobbing for quite some time, but Laurie said something to Chaos and I... "we all bleed together." It's true. The three of us have somehow managed to forge this incredibly close and deep connection over the past 3 years. It's even more incredible when you consider that not only did Laurie originally despise me, but she and Chaos still don't always get along too well.
That reminds me. After that whole incident, Chaos actually admitted that he finally understands why Laurie does what she does, and he will no longer protest against her. She was understandably surprised and asked why, to which he replied that watching her and I cutting these gravestones had shown him that it was something entirely different than what he had assumed it was. She didn't want to hurt me, I was flinching and crying, we were all in a ton of pain, and yet it needed to be done so we all bit the bullet and carried on. Chaos explained that, when Laurie would mentally brutalize me, there was something similar to that going on, but it had never produced any significant results. Once we externalized that around October 22nd, however, the number of Julie hacks was staggeringly reduced. This was working, he could not deny that, and now he could clearly see that it was not some sadomasochistic thing as he had suspected before.
So yes, that's settled out now. We all agreed that there needs to be a Xanga session tomorrow or the day after, so if I can get my Links open enough, it'll be done for sure.

I'm also having a very difficult and confusing time trying to figure out the exact extent of the relationship between two of the characters in Dream World. Yes, there are many relationships in the story, and some of them are downright unique, but these two... geez, they're driving me mad. The one guy is technically genderblind, as he has a girlfriend but is entirely capable of being attracted to anyone else, and the other guy seems to be asexual as he's not attracted to anyone, BUT the two of them have this ridiculously intimate connection and believe me, I know bromance, and this is one heck of a step up from that. However, it's definitely not romantic either, so... man. I'm only stressed out over this because I can't write them correctly if I'm not sure what's going on, haha.
I'm also absolutely terrified for them, because Julie puts a distressing amount of effort into trying to corrupt my perception of them... so I want to keep them positive and true, but I don't want my own mangled judgment hurting them. You see why I'm so upset.
She nearly destroyed what I had with Chaos, thanks to her perversions and fearful insinuations; I don't want her doing that to anyone else, EVER.
So I won't stop fighting her, not until we finally find a way to destroy or purge her.
I'm just so scared that I'll never be entirely white again.

That is all I have to say for right now, as it's already 10:59, and if I know anything it's that demons come out at this hour.
I don't need another attack, especially not now, so I'll see you later.