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[prismaticbleed]

Ash Wednesday
All purple!
Sang HOSEA
SMN gave me a booklet in person
SNOW!!!!
Pharmacy walk

Put myrrh everywhere in the apartment
Changed clocks to purple too
Maybe buy purple lights for the tree

2pm bk

JESUS!
Acting like Laurie when I asked if He was mad at me "No?? Do you think I want to see you suffering from this? Because I don't. I'm angry that you keep having to go through this. But I want you to be healed."
Said I need to be considerate, kind, respectful, etc. BUT not just to others-- also to myself
"When I give you a virtue to practice, they don't just exist in 'social mode.' In fact I'd say that for you it's ironically the opposite-- you can't truly show them outside if you don’t have them inside first. Virtues aren't supposed to be playacts or performances. They have to spring from the heart and they have to start within yourself."
"I'm not Jewel" = " Yes you are, you're just rough and uncut right now. Your 'alters' are protecting it, which is what I created them to do. But the truth is way down deep, and it's raw. You just need to be put into the hands of a lapidary to find yourself again. And look what I have! A two-edged sword, sharp enough to even divide the bones from the marrow. I'll cut you down to size. You might lose a lot of excess mass but don't worry. In the end, look at how much light you will be able to hold within you!"