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Please pray for me to get through the rest of the night. 🙏😣

I keep ending up back in the ER; this is at least the 6th time within two months. It's been with electrolyte imbalances, dangerously low heart rate & blood pressure, sudden allergic reactions, chest pain, nausea & vomiting, and feeling like I'm suffocating. Too much. I wonder how much is COVID.

I know I am sharing in the Cross of Christ but it is still painful, and frightening. Nevertheless if Our Lord wills it I shall continue to carry it, by His grace alone. I must keep my mind fixed on Him.

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Chalice filled with the FRUIT OF THE VINE = the Vine is CHRIST; the fruit He bears is IN THE CHALICE = OUR SALVATION BY HIS BLOOD.
For us to ALSO be "fruit on the vine" INHERENTLY CONNECTS US TO THIS.

No second baptism because we have CONFESSION!!
We can only go into the Jordan and have ORIGINAL SIN removed ONCE. All sins after are OUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY, and require a SECOND DEATH to remove-- THE DEATH OF CHRIST. It is therefore ONLY by dying TO SIN and confessing it LIKE DISMAS on the cross, that we can BE REBORN ANEW??

Life of a Christian reflects the chronology of the Gospel?
Baptism starts, then follows what He teaches in His sermons?? Until we reach the CROSS?

WE MUST CARRY OUR CROSS EXPECTING TO DIE. THERE IS NO PUTTING IT DOWN. Like Saint Dismas, we must CONFESS OUR DESERVING OF DEATH AND SURRENDER TO IT.

CHRIST COMES TO US, HEALS US FIRST WITHOUT "FAITH??" Matthew 4:23-24. He proved His Authority and Goodness FIRST BY HEALING those who came to Him WITHOUT BELIEVING HE WAS GOD. They did not know Him yet and were not ready TO have that faith, but He healed them first. Only then could they believe??? Wondering about this. "You can't give what you don't have" = THEOLOGICAL VIRTUES MUST BE GIVEN TO US by GRACE!