061820

- Woke up at 6am, laid in bed listening to vaporwave & reading about Orthodoxy until 8:30

+ Something horrible I learned today:
DON'T EVER "RETRY" TRAUMA FOODS.

Soybutter apparently gives me DEBILITATING FLASHBACKS.

AVOID ALL NUT BUTTERS AND LUNABARS (SLC).
Be careful with zucchini and yellow squash.

AVOID ALL MILK, even yogurt.

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HEY SO FROZEN BROCCOLI ALSO GIVES ME DEBILITATING FLASHBACKS

SO DO RAW OATS

SO DO HARD BOILED EGGS

SO DO WHEAT CRACKERS

SO DOES WHITE GRAPE JUICE, REALLY BAD

SO DOES CAULIFLOWER.

I'VE LIVED THROUGH SO MANY HELLS DURING THE SUMMER THAT ANY & ALL SENSORY TRIGGERS SEND ME RIGHT BACK INTO THEM.


please God I am so tired.
I just want it to stop.



try again better tomorrow ok?