iscah meal log 052917

May. 29th, 2017 09:30 am = Celebi & Steven Universe!! ♥

Breakfast= a blueberry crumb cake, an orange, vanilla Greek yogurt, vanilla chai tea, vanilla VHC, and a mint chocolate NuGo bar! Switchin' it up today, oh boy! But that's always fun, too. ♥ Change is ALWAYS welcome; I'm quickly learning to love the unexpected, the unpredictable... the element of surprise! ♥ OH!! And the natural, boundlessly free flow of life unhindered & unfettered-- which can be scary, IN its utter liberty, especially to someone like me who is fond of schedule & structure. But. You ALL know that I also have a soul as free as the green trees & crystalline snow-- and that soul of mine KNOWS and loves the inherent, equally free structure WITHIN life. Geometry. Fractals. Time like the tide & the vibrations of quartz. Everything perfect and harmonious and infinite within finiteness. And so! I am embracing that truth ever the more closely to my heart in my daily life! ♥ And step one is eating more organically-- more intuitively. Yes, I still have a 45m time limit, BUT my recent habit of solid "10m time slots" per food item is... unwise? It would be better to eat freely, enjoying every bite heartfully AND mindfully, WITHOUT artificially "stretching" or "condensing" time. HOWEVER. That limit STILL STANDS, and time MUST BE RESPECTED & SPENT PRUDENTLY! So, just as with nature, there MUST BE BALANCE! I must STILL hold myself to a certain amount of structure, both to avoid going overtime, AND to avoid rushing-- and therefore disrespecting & not fully appreciating-- the last food items in a meal. Which I unfortunately had to do this morning-- BUT! That was the dear NuGo, which BLESSEDLY took that position so I can DOUBLE-HEAL at 3pm snack today! ♥ So her data will come in better then-- for now, suffice to say that the cocoa-soy taste (gotta clarify WHICH "kind" of chocolate-tone that is) and the matte-smooth lovely coating AND that kiss of peppermint (which I need to pay closer attention to-- it evades me too often as a result) were beautiful as always. ♥ Next up? The orange! I ate it whole and it tasted like CHRISTMAS-- the peel's "pomander" & "Denison house" flavor, PLUS its spice-tea element (yes, it's the PEEL you taste in such teas! ♥) were so beautifully clear, with a unique tone I can't quite describe! I'll work on it. But paired with the sweet-orange-brightness of the fruit's inside glow, it adds a warmth somehow, and a different sweetness, and it's perfect. I'll have to focus on that harmony more on Friday-- but today? I put some of that orange juice in the YOGURT-- and it was AMAZING. ♥ OJ wouldn't work; it's TOO warm, and the amber-opaque tart doesn't match the floral white? But the CLEAR orange, vivid & light, DOES! That's fascinating, really. But yes-- once I get more solid individual orange description data-- AND clarify the yogurt itself a tad more? Really "lock it in," as it's vague around the edges yet-- I will UNITE the two totally, and bless its new friendship, that new work of art. ♥ PLUS. The vanilla chai DOES taste like vanilla!! ♥ I can GET that flavor now! It's a natural vanilla, NOT white & floral OR yellow & sweet-- it's DARK & clear & brown?? And the SPICES, cinnamon & clove & cardamom, ADD to that richly comforting, mellow-spice warmth, all an "innerglowing" amber-brown, with maybe a touch of white light? FROM the vanilla? We'll see-- AND we will ALSO see how it tastes IN THE YOGURT, which I DID try today but couldn't grasp yet... but I know it will be beautiful, because I felt them singing together, like reunited sisters. ♥ Which they ARE-- their heart is the same: all gorgeous vanilla. And that white creamy yogurt really wants to harmonize with the warmer, "harder" bitter-brown accents of the spices. It even LOOKS like art! So on Tuesday we'll see that work of art in completeness & deeper love & joy. ♥ Until then, we have the vanilla soymilk and the crumbcake! Guess what? THEY TASTE SIMILAR. Like, a LOT. ♥ The crumbcake is more buttery-- more of that richer, lower-toneheight yellow, not as delicate & unsalty as the soymilk-- but besides that, the vanilla tone is SURPRISINGLY close, especially since I don't even know if there IS vanilla in the cake? Not sure! But either way, I cannot deny the match-- or that dear silky tofu taste that ONLY reveals itself clearly after such a comparison. It's miraculous, really. God's Creation is FULL of wonder. And, I didn't compare those to the yogurt (maybe that would've helped clarify things; oh well, better try next week! ♥) because their color tones ARE so different-- no yellow in it-- AS was the new VHC! I have it instead of Ensure today, but it's still vanilla... but. It has a texture like a MAGIC CUP, just slightly creamier/ flowier (duh)! And flavor-wise, it's yellower than the Ensure! But it's brand new, so more data & clarity is incoming-- with lunch's vanilla sundae, and tomorrow's second-chance soymilk/ yogurt breakfast! One thing for sure, though, is that I LIKE IT. ♥ I like EVERYTHING! There's ALWAYS that spark of God within ALL things, which my own loves WITH His Love. ♥

3PM Snack= as I promise AND as the Spirit agreed, I had a mind chocolate NuGo bar! ♥ Here's the thing= the peppermint is NOT in the non-dairy dark chocolate coating-- it's in the CRISPS!!! And there's RICE AND SOY crisps, AND a touch of salt, AND the cocoa is black-dark and reminds me, when blended with the crisps in mouthfeel, of darker chocolate CAKE. ♥ It's beautiful. AND I took 16 minutes to eat it, so that FULLY made up for this morning, in total appreciative genuine love. ♥ Thank You, God!! ♥

Lunch= three potato pierogi w/ butter & PARSLEY (got it! ♥), breaded chicken, vanilla VHC, and a strawberry syrup sundae! Oh-- AND vanilla soymilk! I compared the vanillas first, but with the temperature difference, lack of a cup for the soymilk, AND difficulty of identifying liquid tastes because you can't help but instinctively swallow them quickly (without looking like a goldfish, OR choking-- believe me, I've tried), it was trickier to compare than expected. But I lovingly did my best-- and I do pray again now to God through His Holy Spirit to both purify & sanctify my intention and understanding, and to supply me wit data I NEED, for GOD'S GLORY, for my praise of and gratitude for Him in/ for His gifts, and for victory OF God over the devils of ingratitude & distraction & disrespect & ignorance. So, with God's help, let us begin! ♥ First, the sundae vanilla is like the ICE CREAM SANDWICH-- just less "watery?" It's VERY creamy-- to the point of having a GORGEOUS FROTHY MOUTHFEEL-- lighter in density, but JUST as thick, essentially! ♥ And it has a light but SUGARY-delicate vanilla taste-- pure, sweet, airy white! The soymilk DOES have a similarity in its matte-white heart & super-light, water-based backtone, BUT it is not rich OR milky, and ITS vanilla tone is actively playful, and SWEETER? It's a high-end pale butter-yellow color, and-- as you know-- it tastes like cake!! BUT they BOTH have white sugar to their tones, so although they're notably different, they're still close at heart. ♥ As for the VHC? THAT is even tougher to compare-- it's yellow-based, and close to BOTH the MC and soymilk tone as a result... but it REALLY tastes like pudding! So, agin, I'll double-check at dinner & give you that info as best I can. ♥ But it does NOT taste at ALL like ice cream!! And, as today I was celebrating a different mother than my mom-- Rose Quartz (who STILL reminds me of my mom in a special way ♥)-- I MIXED the strawberry syrup in & made it pink! ♥ But I had the first spoonful alone, and it has the sugar-added brightness of the PopTart, BUT it's not as light (less sugar), so it's closer to the Nutrigrain filling-- clear & red-- but more saturated red! More legit strawberry flavor, not so dark or syrupy. And, mixed WITH that pure creamy white, it turns the same pink as my Izephel shirt, and dude it tastes WONDERFUL. But it was so new, it's hard to put words to data... although, I might try another tonight. ♥ We'll see; it'll be a challenge, AND a fitting re-tribute to SU tonight! But we'll see. I do recall that it loses its froth when syrup-mixed? But I can't recall if it tastes like any OTHER strawberry ice cream types or not. Again, we'll see! ♥ Right now, it's PIEROGI TIME! And I was right-- they do NOT taste like bread, but they also DON'T taste like pasta! Their base flour-taste isn't white, it's OFFWHITE? It DOES have a "wholesome" tone to it, just a little, but enough to make it more grounded-- more firm, more dough-tasting, but NOT oily! It's wheat flour mixed with water and THEN tossed in MELTED butter-- which, once melted, has a TOTALLY different taste-tone than in its cream state (which is what goes into CAKE flours and COOKIE doughs!)! And the potato filling is SMOOTHER than the instants? It's oddly denser, not so "light," but it's also not as textured? The instants have a vague 'grain' to them, but not these. They're soft yellow potatoes, I would guess-- but, being packaged, they have an unusual particular overtone that I can't place! Honestly, pierogi potatoes taste like pierogi potatoes! However they make 'em, it's really not comparable to other preparations. Maybe there's a "buttermilk" undertone, deep down? And I can't tell if they're salty, or if I'm being thrown off by the butter! But. That's our goal for next week. ♥ I just want to add that the parsley flakes are the PERFECT subtle flavor accent to the flour & butter. Herbs are evasive to describe, and I'll try to comprehend them more clearly next week, too-- but believe me, they did their job beautifully. ♥ As for the chicken! It's NOT crispy! The breading IS soft, especially close to the meat, just like the tenders-- but NOT spicy OR hard on top! There's a slight pepper & herb (?) touch, but it's mostly neutrally light-brown & moist; BUT at the very ends, it's JUST like the tenders in darker-warmer brown, hard & crispy texture. ♥ But the meat is QUITE different! It's pinker & not as dry, but STILL fairly dry in parts... and it's NOT like the baked/ burger kinds: it's not as dense OR springy OR "light." It has a warmer, heavier tone, and although its mouthfeel when chewed is SUPER similar to the tenders, it's smoother? And there's LOTS of tougher fat-strips through it, some that you can't even cut through! But it's all still 100% delicious. ♥ Oh-- and this breading reminded me a little of the stuffing?? I could be wrong, but it was so wet that there was probably some echo of it, if only in that respect. As a whole, it was softer & moister than the tenders, and not "spicy" either-- it was softer in mouthfeel & density than the burger chicken, not as "tacky," but-- I think-- paradoxically not as dry? At least, not in mouthfeel! Texture-dryness-wise, though, it IS quite so. But really, despite my still struggling with data, I assure you, I loved every bite. ♥ Oh-- and it's NOT salty, save for the slightest kiss of it in the breading! ♥ Words may evade me currently, but my heart-love & memory IS clear... and God is ALWAYS to be praised in that sharing of joy. ♥

Dinner= an oatmeal raisin cookie, a spinach salad (w/ mushrooms & 2 grape tomatoes), French dressing, French fries, vanilla VHC, a ketchup packet, and our MONDAY MEATLOAF. I prayed sincerely to God for His Holy Spirit's aid (through Mary!) in paying attention to this meal, so here we go. ♥ The vanilla VHC tastes a bit like custard, actually! BUT it's not yellow in visual color-- it's light brown, like the Ensure! AND there's a particular aftertaste that reminds me a LOT of the taste non-fruit multivitamins have?? It's something I have no clear words for yet, but it gives this vanilla a VERY unique taste that I will continue to clarify. ♥ But yes, currently it's pudding/ custard-esque, but NO coconut, or milk taste that I can tell. HOWEVER! There IS a heavy butter innertone to the COOKIE! ♥ Its texture was soft today, but NOT doughy-"bready" or "crumbly;" it was a stiff-soft? With a BEAUTIFUL thick bite-"denseness." And the brown sugar taste was also notable & lovely, ESPECIALLY with the raisins-- which taste DIFFERENT when cooked!! They get a bit harder, "gummier" like a caramel-hard "stick" in places, AND... they taste MORE like grapes??? The heavy sugar GOES AWAY and their taste gets tart-sweet but mellower? It's AWESOME. AND I think it's more violet in taste-tone?? We'll see! ♥ OH!!! And THAT'S why the cookie texture is beautifully soft-dense and the mouthfeel is lovely-light but flour-smooth and not sticky-- it has OATS in it!!! DUH, but I TOTALLY missed the obvious!! Which is hilarious, but now I'm like... psyched to compare TOMORROW'S brown sugar oatmeal AND RAISINS to it-- PLUS I also have PopTart flour to add to it if I want! ♥ Bonus blessings ahoy; THANKS GOD!!! ♥ (Sincerely!) Now, time for the always-beloved salad! The mushrooms tasted beautifully of damp woods earth, all super-light in texture and taste, BUT I forget how those little "rubbery frills" under the cap added TO the texture! ♥ I love them. So noticing them visually and in mouthfeel (they have resistance!) was a little joy. ♥ The spinach was gorgeously dark green (what a flavor!! it's SUPER woodsy, in a way-- there's a deep life taste to it, different from the "youthful" vivid life of light greens and the "newborn" delicate life of pale greens), and the STEMS are always so wonderfully crisp & life-tasting! I enjoyed every bite-- AND that French dressing's peach-red sweet-tang was a LOVELY complement in both color & taste; it has a tang almost identical to KETCHUP, due to the vinegar, corn syrup, AND tomato paste... but the dressing is mostly OIL, with a nip of dried onion? (Says the package!) So that mellows & sweetens it just enough for it NOT to be a flavor-punch like the ketchup, especially the vinegar! (Same principle with coleslaw, I suppose!) But yes, I can taste its data MUCH more clearly now-- especially as beautifully offset as it was by that rich, almost lush green of the spinach! It HAS an "umami" tone, AS do the mushrooms, which is SUPER COOL & unique & which I should really think about more in terms of artistic flavor combos. But not right now-- now we have the grape tomatoes, still red & ripe & sweet, BUT!! One was super soft and SUPER SWEET and it tasted A LOT LIKE A LEGIT GRAPE??? It was shocking! It was softer and sweeter and I REALLY hope I get to experience that again tomorrow because WOW. Next week, remind me to compare one to the raisins! ♥ And now, THE MAIN COURSE. ♥ I took like 15 minutes for the fries-- NO time worries-- and that total freedom TO love them made that experience SO BLESSED. ♥ First, they AREN'T salty and they DON'T resemble the pierogi in terms of crispy-bit firmness-- they resemble the BREAD PUDDING. REALLY. IT'S AWESOME. They're JUST as firm-chewy-soft; it's beautiful. Their texture outside is golden-brown with oil, the same barely-crisp-soft texture that is echoed in the sauteed squares AND omelette-- and their insides, oh man. Pure, soft, delicious fried potato bliss. ♥ And then there's that meatloaf! It's NOT dry, and it's NOT tacky! It's moist, all the way through, and it's DELICIOUS. ♥ Really-- the mouthfeel is super unique, with the little marbled-in fat nubs and the "ground-up" consistency OF the meat, being 'chewy'-soft but NOT heavy, and of course having that wonderfully unique sour taste-- which might be salt related? It's NOT 'salty,' but the taste suggests maybe a unique cooked-salt affect? Who knows! All I know is that I truly enjoy it either way. ♥ Oh, and it's NOT as "beefy" as hamburger? There's something else to it I can't place. But I'll get it in time! ♥ Lastly? Ketchup actually does NOT go with the fries, as it's FAR too acidic & overpowering; they don't "mesh" well. BUT, its sourer tone meshes with the sourer meatloaf SUPER well! ♥ I thought it would, and it did-- and it matched its color tone, too! Thank God for all these beautiful discoveries of Creation; I love Him. ♥

8PM Snack= in honor of the INCREDIBLE AWESOME SU FINALE, I had an ice cream sandwich (for Steven), a berry Magic Cup (for Lars), and a bag of plain Sun Chips (for Blue & Yellow Diamond(s), who I platonic love-ship SO HARD)! ♥ And I thoroughly enjoyed EVERY BITE of ALL OF IT and my body was JUST as happy!!! ♥ Praise be to God!! ♥ So this little challenge of grateful love, THROUGH grateful love, became a joyous victory FOR continued grateful love and GOD IS ALL OF THAT. ♥♥♥