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yesterday.

genesis turned TEN YEARS OLD. that's really incredible.

didn't get to listen to any ewf/chg but we'll listen to some today to make up for it



looking through mom's photo boxes, for therapy reasons. trying to see what happened when, and IF we remember any of it.

we didn't go through 2009-2013 yet, we'll do that either tonight or tomorrow morning, whenever we have sufficient time.




leena out when eating. SHE'S NOT POSITIVE.
"i dont know you so i dont care about you"
she said she's an ogre because "she's a disgusting monster" and she's just kind of passively fine with that?
the "shrug, whatever" vibe


DISCONNECT between harm and the consequences???
especially with E.D. voices: they know certain foods are forbidden but "see no logic behind it" and eat them anyway, then when the pain hits they either dissociate or think it's unrelated and/or unimportant??
basically APATHY.


horribly depressed and sick, but ran outside and down the road at 9:30 to watch the fireworks over the hill with genesis.
he was deeply moved by the effort, especially since most of the day so far had consisted of him being snubbed by selfish alters