MIRACLE DRUGS
Oct. 25th, 2008 03:57 am
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12AM1AM2AM3AM4AMWHY
noname
noname
noname
WEHAVENONAME.
and I ask
myself again
WHERE
DID
MY
DREAMS
GO?
Mr Samsa
I'm afraid I must
KILL YOU AGAIN
"Why are you leaving?
You can't just leave."
All of a sudden
It struck me
Just how selfish those words sounded.
WATCH
WHAT
YOURE
SAYING
TYPING
THINKING
IDIOT
Like I was staying here for your sake.
Like you're the only reason I'm even here.
Like you're something I can't afford to lose.
Don't be silly.
I'm so sick of this
every day
every night
you say the same thing
the same DAMN THING
a DELUDED LIE
can't you just leave me
THINK
with chaos like the old days?
"I love you"
"stay with me forever"
"MARRY ME!"
WHAT THE HELL
(is going on)
You say it to who you THINK
is J.W.L.
but you've never
AM I? known me.
DEARGODWHOAMI? (AND NEITHER
HAVE I.)
Do you
remember
Wobbly
Headed
BOB?
maybe not
MAYBE YES?
mAyBE SO
LEAVEMEALONEPLEASE!
PLEASESTOPSAYINGITSTOPREPEATINGTHESELIESSTOPTRYINGTOMAKEMEDESTROYMYSELFAGAIN!
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