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Relapse with food. Realizing I eat a lot of foods SOLELY BECAUSE THEY REMIND ME OF GRANDPA.
I have BIG father figure issues. I'm also STILL GRIEVING.

Concerning that binge behavior-- God won't let me have money until I STOP BEING GREEDY & FOOLISH WITH IT.
"Seek ye first the kingdom of God"

I realized that I really am terrified of/ hate saying goodbye to Chris before work because OLIVER MADE ME DO THE EXACT BLOODY THING EVERY EVENING
We're still not able to cope with all that "faking it" trauma survival behavior on our part. Can't look at memories without wanting to legit die

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Revelations about Chaos's Spectrum name just slamming into my heart today
GRACE = CHARIS??????? = GIFT???????
I'M SOBBING WHAT