kin/ totem animals = list for tbhu
Oct. 8th, 2024 10:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
"In this task you will address opposite forces that reside within you, using animals as metaphors for each of these forces."
PAST SELF-VISION
(WHAT WE RESONATED WITH IN CHILDHOOD; PRIOR TO ~2008)
★ BAT
(vital to ecosystem but seen as bad; outcast = AESOP fable = "no one wants me for what I am / I don't fit in anywhere")● DOLPHIN
(smart, playful, mischievous, chatterbox) (huge ECCO influence; brave, chosen, mysterious)
● COBRA
(charmed by music? venomous but dignified) (damned as evil without fair trial)
● FRILLED LIZARD
(hyper? huge influence from "the rescuers" frank. run around, "scare off" danger)
● SCORPION
(small & vulnerable, but deadly; star trek 8472 inner conflict = "what IS my true nature" vs others assumptions)
● SIAMESE CAT
(talkative, elegant, a bit aloof but friendly)
★ UNICORN (ALICORN)
(powerful, magical, pure, rare, hunted) (huge influences = AMALTHEA, JEWEL from narnia, Whisper books, etc.)
● ALIEN
(feeling utterly "alien". explorer, protector, on a mission, trying to save humans but feared by them) (ANDALITE kin)
● BUTTERFLY
(transformed into beauty from "ugly worm"; colorful, vibrant presentation, but evaded being caught or held)
★ DRAGON (WESTERN)
(seen as either holy or evil. DRACO HEART our biggest vibe = Dragonheart movie AND Sigurd myth. fire inside. KINTYPE)
● GULPER EEL
(unloved and unseen, but glowing in the dark. hidden depths of soul feeling; dies if taken up to the shallow surface)
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"CURRENT" SELF-VISION
(RESONANCES FROM '08-'18?)
● PRAYING MANTIS
(religious appearance but pray/prey battle inside. deadly predator but fragile body. intimacy ends in murder.)
● JACKAL
("dog" as a religious slur, yet ironically divine (anubis) = psychopomp. "will eat anything" spiritual scavenger danger)
● OCTOPUS?
(super smart but live a solitary existence. studied and caged. strange, viewed as alien/ divine. soft body, eaten)
● SHARK?
(predator with a soft skeleton. feared, hated, deemed dangerous & aggressive. no chance to prove goodness)
★ PHOENIX?
(resurrection from cyclical immolation deaths. soul of fire. eats incense. its tears and songs have healing powers)
★ DRAGON (EASTERN)
(protector of sacred things. flight without exertion. mysterious, wise, guards & guides people. sign of good luck)
● RAM?
(sacrificial animal = takes away sins of others. shofar horn = call to prayer & repentance, signal of God)
● DEER? (PERYTON?)
(psalm 42. "archetype" animal. sacred, connection to supernatural, heavenly messengers. "HART" pun)
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IDEAL SELF-VISION
I think I will ALWAYS feel like a BAT/ DRAGON the most, but I DO still resonate SO HARD with unicorns? And child-me feels "alien" still, too.
JAY was VERY MUCH A PHOENIX. one of them was also EXPLICITLY an eastern dragon kintype (white in color), and often became one in headspace.
I just don't feel like a bird. But I DO FLY.