a prayer for help

[prismaticbleed]

Lord God, Almighty and Merciful God, I am struggling so much with these body & gender issues.

On one hand, I know they "don't matter." Ultimately this body will decay and rot, no matter how fat or muscular it may be now. Ultimately it doesn't matter if I'm a boy or a girl as long as I live my life for You.

Except... it DOES matter. How I take care of this body matters. And I do not understand gender at ALL but the church insists it's vitally important.

Help me, please.