prismaticbleed | A prayer while I wait (Reply)

God, I shamefully admit that, far too often, I want an immediate solution for my problems. I want quick repairs, fast fixes, and instant answers.

Even worse, when I feel something is 'wrong', I will panic and insist that it be righted... RIGHT NOW. It can honestly drive me mad if I let it.

That feeling within waiting, of total blindness & powerlessness to act, is actually terrifying. I feel naked and afraid and dangerously vulnerable. I feel like I'm doomed, if I can't see the solution approaching, let alone even know what it is. I want to ACT. I want to MAKE IT WORK, NOW, on my terms, according to what little I may actually understand.

But You, with tender affection, simply and patiently insist that I... be simply patient.

I realize that is only possible with Love.

Your timing is perfect. Your motives are perfect. Your ways are perfect. Your goals are perfect.

Lord, if I can only remember that, waiting would become a joy– because then I'd be waiting FOR YOU. I'd be able to sit and patiently see how You will act. Even more wonderfully, once I am resting in that trusting perspective, I will become able to cooperate WITH You in Your mysterious yet blessed processes.

As I wait, help me to remember that I'm not waiting for You to act, because You already and always ARE, even if I can't see it at all.
Help me to shift my mindset to learn from the current situation I’m in, instead of impatiently wanting it to change.

You have never failed me, ever.

You have already blessed me so much, despite all odds.

Help me focus on that fact.

God, whatever You're going to do next... thank You.

I trust in You.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.