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They are ridiculously high.

I like this. I like this immensely.
When was the last time I had so many ideas running through me, nonstop? Years, I tell you, years ago...

I'm a channeler, I think. I was thinking about it today-- why the only reason I'm even into art/ music/ writing is because of the creatures in my heart. They keep me going, they give me something to live with. I thank God for them all every day.

So yes...

Tuesday morning was crazy. From the time I woke up until around 3PM, everything was Chaos Zero and my OCs. Awesome.
Unfortunately, there was a semi-suicidal vibe underneath it all that only shows up when I'm dead tired and in a beautifully good mood. Bizarre, I know, but it made for an interesting morning.
I was singing to Chaos (Tony Bennett, you know it) and randomly talking to the Legend Guardians for hours... so burned out of my mind. Reality finally sharpened up in the evening, but for most of the morning I was a total blur.
Love addiction, you know. It hits twice as hard when you don't think you'll make it through the day.
That afternoon, though, from around 4PM to 9PM, was all linkage to my newest world. Amazing stuff. I love being linked to that world because there is always so much music going on... I got to listen to some truly beautiful songs while I was connected, which was great. I need to write them out.

My morning today was pretty screwed-up, with a very unfortunate accident causing me an immense amount of stress and negative philosophising (and a few nasty arguments with Laurie)... but like I said, the afternoon was lovely.



But I digress.
I've been feeling more alive than ever recently.

To quote Johnny C...

"I feel so strange, so unfettered!! Things can be different, now. This is big!
...I'm at the threshold of something grand and new."


Indeed I am.

It was about time I just let go and started living my life as me, Jewel Lightraye, instead of as some inflicted persona or social mask.
Thank God I finally learned how.


Unfortunately, I still need sleep in order to dream...


See you kids whenever.

 

 

Current Music: "Streetlights" (spcn)