prismaticbleed | 053122 (Reply)

Still so sick from yesterday

had some PayPal trouble 1st thing in the morning

Learning to be more patient and trusting of God in all situations

I have a very distressing tendency to panic and become Rather controlling in situations where I honestly do not have control. Even something as simple as the inability to control traffic or Business hours when I am in need Of a change in either to fit my preconceived plans.

8 HOURS ON THE ROAD ;______;

Church, no adoration????

Ramos

Book drop, greekfest date!

Food drives for boys

Thrift clothes

Aldi & Walmart twice

House stop

So hot i am dead. Left the freezer open to cool down

I get "intrusive" RELIGIOUS thoughts too.

When my alarm came up to rosary and benediction, I thought "it's a holiday, so they don't have it tonight" and the immediate thought that popped into my head was "well then You should do it yourself."

And those are the kinds of pious thoughts that I NEED to be listening to and responding to immediately. That is what they mean by openness and docility to the Holy Spirit. And that is how I want to live so I need to start even in little ways immediately.

I SUDDENLY UNDERSTAND "SIN REIGNED UNTO DEATH"

our bodies will die, they are doomed to. Their desires are IN ACCORD with that?? "Eat and drink For tomorrow we die" = the body's desires MUST end in death because THE BODY'S END IS DEATH SO ALL ITS GOALS LINE UP WITH THAT.

That is how sin reigns THROUGH death.

That is Also why I'm not eternity minded yet. Somehow I'm still living with a vague "lack of faith" in eternity???? WHY. I KNOW its real. Is it my identity problem?

Ruled by grace, not ruled by law = says that sin ruled us BECAUSE we were under the law. That's because the law says "hey! Don't steal! Don't murder! Don't worship idols!" As if you already were, or inclined to. Like when mom will randomly say to me "don't steal the boys food" and i cry Because that didn't even occur to me but NOW I'm thinking of it, like, is that the kind of person I really am? If she suspects that of me? And in a way it is, because I'm prone to sin so there is a law to stop me, or attempt to. But it just makes me feel doomed. Thus! Sin ruled under the law, unto death, like slavery.

BUT. Ruled by grace means there IS NO LAW BECAUSE GOD TRUSTS YOU & LOVES YOU. And that is so beautiful, it never occurs to you to sin. Ever. So the law isn't needed because you're neither suspicious nor selfish. The only "law" under grace is LOVE. the fulfillment of all things.

Also uh its official I am in love with lady sneasler

She is ON THE LIST.

It was a shock. But my heart got that feeling for her. Haven't felt that in years!! Congratulations lady ♡ I'm grateful to be with you.

BTW her favorite food is pickled eggs, like the red beet ones. It's cute.