dec 11 2015

[prismaticbleed]

What's the first thing that made you cry in Undertale?

Like many people, I couldn’t figure out how to ‘win’ against Toriel at first, and I accidentally killed her.
...I didn’t know that people died in Undertale until that very second, and that reality picked the worst possible time to sink in. Seeing her in pain was bad enough, but when I realized what I had just done, unintentionally or not...
“Be good, won’t you? My child.”
I immediately slammed the ESC key, outright holding back sobs of panic and heartache, and when I shakily faced her again I showed nothing but mercy, mercy, mercy.
She told me not to return, and hugged me for the last time, and in light of what I had just [almost] done to her... needless to say, that was the second thing that made me cry.

...The third time happened very soon afterwards, because Flowey remembered what I did. Needless to say, the tears that shot to the heart elicited were of a very different sort.

But yeah this game hit me like a freight train and I adore it.



<sub>#THIS GAME MADE ME OUTRIGHT WEEP AT SOME PARTS #IT MADE ME SERIOUSLY QUESTION A LOT OF THINGS ABOUT MYSELF #IT TAUGHT ME HOW TO OPEN MY HEART MORE THAN I EVER THOUGHT I COULD #BUT THAT PROCESS INVOLVED A LOT OF SHATTERING #AND LET'S NOT EVEN START ON THE OMEGA FLOWEY BATTLE #I DID NOT SLEEP THAT NIGHT #NEVERTHELESS I ADORE THIS GAME #THANK YOU TOBY FOX FOR CREATING THIS BEAUTIFUL THING #E THANK YOU A QUADRILLION TIMES FOR GIVING US THE OPPORTUNITY TO PLAY IT #IT IS EXACTLY WHAT WE NEEDED AT THIS POINT IN OUR LIFE #IT HAS INSPIRED US DEEPLY AND TAUGHT US SO MUCH #ALSO I MAY BE A LITTLE BIT IN LOVE WITH A CERTAIN ROBOT #I'M JUST AS SURPRISED AS EVERYONE ELSE BELIEVE ME #BUT YES UNDERTALE IS NOW A HUGE ELEMENT OF OUR LIFE AND I COULD NOT BE HAPPIER


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Favorite character/ character you are most attached to in Undertale?


Oh geez, uh. Most of them? It’s hard to articulate but let me try a bit.

I love Undyne’s design, her fierce devotion to her people & friends, and her attitude. She reminds me potently of someone I love dearly– someone with just as fiery a heart as her– and for that I am fond of her by default. Plus she has an absolutely fantastic sense of humor.

I love Papyrus for how sweet he is. He reminds me the most of myself– or, more accurately, who I would be at my best. He sees the potential to do great good in everyone, and to quote another post on this site, he is “unwaveringly confident and soft-hearted in such a bleak world.” So I love that about him.

I love Sans because of his struggles, of knowing and seeing too much, of feeling crushed by that existential awareness… and yet he still manages to light up a room when he walks in, he still loves his brother unconditionally, he still tries even if he claims he’s given up. He has barely any hope left but it’s there, and it still shows, and that means a lot to me.

I love Asgore. I relate to him very strongly. He struggles to let go of the idyllic past he so dearly wishes to have again, but cannot. He wants to give real hope to his despairing people but he went about it the wrong way, motivated by pain, and he’s too lost in regret and fear to back out. He’s running from the future, in a way. But he has such a good heart; he still strives to be the best king he can be.

I love Toriel too– who doesn’t?– but I don’t feel I got to know her as well as I did the other characters. Nevertheless the amount of sheer kindness she showed Frisk in the Ruins really touched my heart, plus the fact that she checked for fallen humans every day, and was willing to care for all of them so sincerely. I really looked up to her as a mother figure in-game and as someone who’s never really had that, that meant a lot to me personally.

I LOVE Flowey/Asriel so much and that’s amusing to me considering how upset that flower made me in the beginning. But… like Sans, Asriel has been through hell.He’s the sweetest thing but through pain and self-blame and unfortunate circumstance, his softer side was buried and the sheer weight of suffering and loss and confusion turned him bitterly brutal. Thinking about this kid (and his dad) makes me want to sob, especially after the experience of the Neutral/Pacifist endings, which kind of ripped up my heart and put it back together bigger. I have a lot of feelings about this kid in general.

And I LOVE Mettaton. He’s the one I’d automatically list as my “fave,” probably because I have the most questions about him and that’s usually what hooks me. However, like Asgore & Papyrus, I actually do relate strongly to him nevertheless and that alone inspires me, as he has all the qualities that I wish I could safely integrate. He’s theatrical and enthusiastic and witty, he’s confident and eccentric and unafraid of the spotlight. He chases his dreams relentlessly, he knows what he wants and he pursues that but he always seems to have his audience on his mind. The fandom typically reads him as selfish but I disagree. He wanted this body, he wanted this life, and he finally has it and he loves it. That is going to his head a little of course, but at the end of the day he’s obviously devoted to his fans, and although he seems to be preoccupied with the future (the opposite of Asgore), he doesn’t forget the people he cares about, who helped him get here, who supported him before he was a star in the Underground’s eyes.
I don’t know, he’s the toughest to talk about because I relate to him so much in virtually every way but it’s on a deeper level that I’m not actively living yet/anymore… aaand then of course there’s the whole “is Mettaton transgender” thing which just makes me relate to him even more and you get the idea. So I do have to worry about projection!

But yeah. That’s the long short answer!
I adore this game and I really should write about it more, so thank you for this question towards that end.