031215

[prismaticbleed]

 

things for updates

PHOTOS.
we found a picture of spinny. she's terribly cute and naïve but there is a terrible distance in her eyes
found lynne's concert date. only 3 days before her death I think.
even looking at lost years there is no data.


BTW START A PRIVATE JOURNAL AGAIN (old "thoughts" files!!)
You don't need to publish/perform for everyone else all the time.
Learn to love your own privacy again.
Let your thoughts out for their own sake, for expressive freedom.
Kill that ego, dude. Don't be a slave to its lies.
You don't need to "justify" or alter your truth for an audience.

 

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@ 23:08 pm

 

march update snippets



sun march 8th
all I know is I was with infi. ze is very unstable lately. demon/daemon vocab slipping, that’s a red flag in general.

mon march 9th
with chaos, around 4am. completely conscious. 444 remember

tues march 10th
talking to genesis and eros about the "nonsexual touch" problem, found some relevant articles online about that

wed march 11th
more hack attempts.
realized the 'sexual forcing' with everything is actually a rerouting of our need for "intimacy" and privacy, something we don't get at home but which we were also told is a sexual thing only, that's an evil lie
wrote some music, wrote about halcyon days. trying to figure out why their vibes feel sick, possibly the influence of hackers?

thurs march 12th
big outspacer bit. feeling surprising amount of resonance with markus, I seem to just vibe with violet people