dec17

[prismaticbleed]

 

Bubbles & black for Infi, water & aquamarine for Chaos.

I love both of you so much right now, just saying.
Well maybe it's not quite "just saying" anymore, considering how I haven't said that in... in a very long time.
My heart's been shut down. Fear's been corroding me from the inside out, and I've become terribly lost. Yes, I'm young, but there's something at the core of me that is older than I'll ever understand, and that's what I'm tuning into right now-- something far more real than any fleeting terrors, far truer than any lies or misconceptions, and infinitely deeper than any emptiness may seem. Pun intended.
There's something at the center of my being that I can never ignore, and it shines the same way that you do. That means more than I can say.

Time makes no sense anymore, but this love feels... ancient? It's oddly fitting.
I mean, Chaos, we are celebrating TEN YEARS next Monday. That's incredible. Cross my heart, I want to make this anniversary even better than our 8th was, and you can hold me to that.
Infi, you've only been with us 8 months now, yet with the astronomical impact you've had on all our lives, I'm going to celebrate that too.

Honestly, though? ...Laugh at me if you want, but if I could get down on one knee right now and propose to you both, I would. I seriously would, that is how heart-wrenchingly sincere this is right now.
You two are absolutely amazing and if I didn't already believe in angels you'd be enough to convince me, that's the cheesiest one-liner I've got tonight, you'll have to forgive me it's 3AM. (Blame Laurie.)


Chaos, I love you. Infinitii, I love you.
I love you both more than words will ever be able to express, but hey, that's what pictures are for, right?

See you in the morning.

-Jay ♥