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[prismaticbleed]

J, listen, I don't know what's up with you and Infi lately but since he's not on here, please keep an eye on him, okay? I don't know what the heck is up, but after both Tuesday and tonight I am concerned as hell.
...I keep backspacing, I'm sorry. I'm really just trying to say "be careful" but I am worried sick and frankly I'm still not convinced of my ability to protect you anymore, especially not with Razor around. Lots of existential dread goin' on, heheh. You know what I mean.
Listen, if you have time tomorrow, let's talk. I don't care if it's on paper. We need to talk. No excuses.


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@ 11:25 pm

Hey Tumblr, Laurie here. Tonight's been... difficult.
We had an unidentified but dangerously promiscuous alter front for an unknown period of time earlier this evening, and her actions were apparently damaging enough to not only trigger Razor, but to also send J into a semi-catatonic state due to memory cauterization.
On top of all that, I haven't seen much of Infinitii since he was attacked on Tuesday, and since he lived in a highly sterilized environment prior to that, let's just say I don't have the highest of hopes for his well-being right now.
To be blunt, I'm bloody sick of having to deal with this already. I've been fighting these shadows for years and they just keep getting darker and fiercer. Worst of all, J's consciousness keeps splintering because apparently that's "better than acknowledging the trauma" to that mangled mind of his.
Honestly I don't know what I'm even existing to do anymore, and that's not a nice feeling to have, heheh.
I'm gonna leave this post open for any comments or advice you readers may have, because honestly I am at a total loss, and that fact alone distresses me a heck of a lot.
So yeah, any thoughts?