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LAURIE UBERICH JEWEL LIGHTRAYE




We need to talk.

Right now? No bloody way. You have schoolwork to finish.

That's the point. I haven't been on here since...

February?

January.

Geez. That's... longer than I realized.

Yeah, exactly. I've been a mess since March, Laurie. I miss you. I miss all of you.

No kidding, how do you think we feel?

I know. But... seriously, here we are, trying to channel for the first time in five months, and it feels like home. It sounds ridiculous but it's true.

It doesn't sound ridiculous. Remember what I told you.

I will.

Listen. We can't talk right now. But this is at least a start. I was worried you wouldn't be able to hear me at all, after such a long hiatus.

If that ever happened, I don't know what I'd do. It would be like I lost part of my soul.

Don't you dare die on me.

I won't. There aren't any more axe-swinging superegos up here, remember? And Julie's with us now.

Yeah, but... don't you die on me.

In what sense?

The inner sense. You know as well as I do that you've been slipping lately.

Slipping, but not falling. I'm learning. The planet is changing. We're evolving. It's a rough road, but I swear to you Laurie, I'm not going to die. Not like this, not now.

Good. Because I've been worried.

I know.

Hey, Jewel?

Yeah?

Before we close this up... I just want to thank you.

For what?

For being here. For being right where you are right now.

After everything we've went through, you mean?

No kidding. We've come a long way, kid.

We seriously have.

And that's why I was so concerned today. Geez, you were... hopeless, almost. What with the metainomen you've got up here, that was pretty freaking scary.

It scared me too. Well... at least for a minute it did. Then the universe sent me some more synchronicity and I ended up in tears from how loud, how clear an 'answer' it was.

Really?

Yeah. So things are still rough, so to speak. But I'll deal with it.

You'd better. Your daughter's waiting for you, you know.

...She is?

Yeah. She told me her birthday wish, said it was the same as yours. Then made me promise not to tell anyone else or it 'wouldn't come true.' I told her that stuff's superstition and she's getting every single wish she's ever made granted.

Heh, I hope so.

She will. I know she will.

...

That's one heck of a beautiful wish, you know.

It is.

No, I'm serious. You know what it would mean, if it was granted.

Laurie, I've been praying for that every day since I was 13, practically--

And how did you deal with it in the past? With fear. "I'm not good enough." "I couldn't handle that." Tough deal. Love is love and you're living it now. You no longer have those worries, nor do you have the luxury of entertaining them. Now you're praying for that wish to be granted, and so help me but I hope it will be.

...Do you really think it's possible?

Why the heck wouldn't it be? It's already happening. A shift in perceived reality is all you need.

All we need, you mean.

Yeah.

...I think you're right. We need to close this up before I start drowning in this and before the clock hits 3AM, because it's a school night.

You are terrible at getting enough sleep on school nights, I swear.

That does need to be dealt with.

Then deal with it. We'll talk on Tuesday night if you have time, aiite?

Sounds good. Love you, Laurie.

Love you too, kid. Now get back to work, because there's a lot of it to be done.

Will do!