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I have a very emotional journal to write here.
You know who it's about.

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I never thought it was possible to fall in love with someone for a second time, and fall even deeper than you had ever before, but last night that's exactly what happened to me.
Of course, knowing my sadly mangled little mind, there's a lot that built up to that.

It started on Sunday night when I was randomly listening to my iTunes playlist, and my Genius software suddenly threw a recommendation at me for a band named "FROST*." I decided to listen to the preview, and I was immediately intrigued. Looking them up on the store's search engine, I listened to the rest of their album previews and knew that I had to buy them, no questions. I don't mean that in a materialistic way-- I mean that in the sense that their music is incomparably gorgeous. I love every single track on both their albums, and that's never happened to me with any other band.
So I bought the albums yesterday afternoon... and here's the killer.
It started raining outside.
Now, if you've been watching my latest dA favespams or have been seeing me in person for the past few days, then you're probably well aware that I am in the most severe Chaos Zero hype I've had in years.
Take that fact and add in some rainy weather, and I'm absolutely euphoric on any given day... but throw in FROST*'s music, and then some crazy stuff starts happening.
My theoretical Links started kicking in.

Here's some Spinny jargon clarification for you readers: A "Link" is a term I use for any sort of strong mental/ spiritual/ emotional/ what have you connection between me and someone I know well. When applied to soulbonds and other 'worlds' like those of Halcyon and the Hokthai, Links allow me to limitedly see what's going on there-- which is how I write their storylines, haha.
A "theoretical Link," though... that's what the normal person would call a 'daydream.' They work with the same people I'm normally Linked with, but those situations aren't what I consider 'canon' or 'reality' in whatever sense. I can tell when a Link is theoretical because I can freely mess around with what's going on... and the situations are typically extremely twisted.
Yes, you heard me. Theoretical Links are what I wrote "Dream World's End" with, and by any reason you know what that is, then you get the idea.
If you're still confused, let me finally explain what sort of freakish imagining hit my mind around 10:30PM last night, to the music of Milliontown.

Station Square all over again.
That scenario has happened before in my 'non-canon' group Link scenarios (the ones with my 4 and I), but there was one time when I was forced to pull a near-suicide move to get him back to normal-- I morphed Cherubell and flew into Perfect Chaos, then immediately threw off the most intense energy attack I possibly could. It worked that time, but seeing how severe the results were anyway...
...Last night, I wondered what would have happened if I died.

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...(continue this later, kid.)




(I'm leaving this public because, despite being unfinished, it's incredibly important to me.)